life is beautiful

2009-11-16T15:47:00.001+08:00

i've move to tumblr.

my people

2009-08-23T15:52:00.005+08:00

this was taken few months way back ago when my people and i went for an adventure at Old Changi Hospital. I dont know what's wrong with the camera anyway. The story have been updated if u have been follow up the entries, so here's the pic that i've found.

Nothing much to update, so here are past photos during past events with my people. Last month, we had a BBQ & JULY BABIES celebration.

The cake is soo nice(:

The mens having their talks.

The other side, the kids were having fun. Nice to see them happily playing together(:

the most famous gayboys.

sweet aren't they? haha. of course, these arent real. my people are straight people keh!

ala bedah hai!

going upstairs to take the cake, i guess. so, camwhore a lil(;

Oh yah, we had karaoke session in the Sense room.

Mostly the songs were DANGDUT(: oh iloveit. hee

After so much of our melliflous notes, dancing and all, the cake was about to be cut. So we make our way back to the rest of our people.

usual crazy people

sweet family potrait there, but somethings are much to be focus at. Look at the 2 guys at the back-.-"

same goes to this photo. hahs!

that's about it. it would so much fun if baby's there. u will know why sooner or later;)
love babyron!

i dun nid dramas

2009-08-22T11:47:00.005+08:00

i've no idea how to describe my feelings at that point of time. But i knew it was a mixture of happiness and a lil of sadness. I was one freaking happy lil girl(ehem) on 16th Aug at night when baby called. After long freaking daysss of not contacting each other due to his field camp-.-" now i can talk almost everything to him, great.

tears almost rolling down my cheeks. heart was beating like a racehorse upon hearing that melliflous tone. i was at CCK in aunt's house after some rehearsal. i can say field camp wasnt that bad somehow. =p one word, wonderful. now baby's back, okay for few days. ahai!

so i was happy that baby's back and he's fine. hahs. it was just marvellous at that point anyway. so, tend to a lil exagerate u see. well. hahs. it was all smiles afterwards.

after all that happen, i was hoping hard enough. real hard. let that just be between me and GOD. anyway, yesterday, i was on afternoon shift and it was "one-of-a-kind" of tiredness. hahs. but it turned out great when baby came down to NUH all the way from Pasir Ris. freakingly missed him. thanks baby. tiredness were gone in a split second. =p

side track, of course im still unhappy on certain things. anyway, old pictures. u've got to see the difference aye.

if u could notice somethings. (: still not sure? come find me.

oh heaven! it's now fasting month.

things are just average. clueless. too many drama going about all around. FUCK.
now im confuse. plz GOD, let it flow.

i miss the old times

2009-08-15T21:36:00.008+08:00

for once, i felt "emptyness" was filled. but fortunately this is `aYme. rational thinker. ;)

anyway, i had a hard time deciding which to go for today's planning. i wanted to give my support to Falcons which later part i get to know it's the same as last year where we actually just to represent that centre. thanks.

during the freaking old times. with our ex coach and my abah as our current coach.

it's been freaking ages that i ever spent time with them, and thus i thought of coming later in the afternoon. then the weather was a lil biars at that moment. hahs. so i chilled back watching DVD. so thought of meeting superGF but she postponed it. So yeah, all failed. &finally i went down to former school for the band investiture. YELLOW! ;)))
i miss babyboi;(

so, talked to the alumni members whom i've missed them out as well. all thanks to the tight schedule since April. things went as per normal.

and by then i realised i miss out soo many things from soo many people.

and honey, i still do feel restless. with the fucking nightmares. come home quick, please:(

life has to go on

2009-08-13T23:03:00.006+08:00

you might think you are one real big fucker being such situation. getting all the things u wanted. being one big fat liar, you're marvellous? oh man c'mon. get a life, you're not living in fantasy. where's your human rights??

i was freaking pissed off this afternoon while waiting for that freaking bus for half an hour. that's abnormal. usually the bus will arrive few mins but i wonder what happened to the driver. so Mai &me reached our ward at 12.56pm, according to my wristwatch. unfortunately, the clock there was 10mins earlier. you're right, my lecturer's face turned red. -.-"

there goes my mood. but yeah, it gets a lil better soon after. just that, baby was missed yet again, each and every time. opposite ward was pathetic having ain and ru zhen only. -.-"

things went fine though. some things are just hard to be explain.

on the way back home, abah called. then it was Isyah doing the talking. missed them too. it's been since we met. so sweet of Isyah.

although u didnt treat me as how you should, but i'm here keeping my words.
i mean it.
i need you.

move on

2009-08-11T19:19:00.004+08:00

I don't know how special u are but u are one bad influence and annoying shameless person. Sorry.

Friday
Boyfriend fetched after work once he booked out, slacked. Waited for Kak Lydia to fetch him and i went home. Attachment was alright except that i came late for last day-.-" Thanks to Nas & Aisyah for putting in effort to represent us doing "thank you" card although it was last minute. No one wanted to present even our precious leader passed it on to lecturer. Hahs.

Saturday
Unfortunately need to go back to the hospital for replacement due to the MC i took last Monday. Worth it i can say =p Ended about 3pm and shoot off to WM to meet boyfie. Walked till dunno where which then later he accompanied me to my private school. Settled some admin stuff. &oh great, finally, i quited school-.-" but it was silly, cos left only few months. kentot. Had our dinner and went back home.

Sunday
Happy National Day. I didnt celebrate it, at all. Fireworks doesnt seem to please me anymore. Woke up in the morning and shoot off to boyfie's place. Followed kompang to Woodlands and Clementi. Slacked around and went home. Later at night around 9plus, went to A.B's house. Played JENGGA. hahs. it's been ages since i played such game. Then watched Exorcist(?) Emily Rose. Story line was quite slow that i fell asleep halfway. Hahs. The Cave was even more slower -.-" Went home about 3 and by then bf was asleep. arhg.

Monday
Baby booked in :(
Field camp ;-( But it's okay! It's gonna be fine, everything's gonna turn just as smooth(:

Tuesday
New ward. So it was all about orientation yet again for few hours. Then worked as per normal. Thank goodness my AN & SN was great, especially my AN. Today ended at 4pm-.-" then off to meet Pika. Chit chat and shoot off home. Oh! Today there's meeting. Okay, im exhausted.

That was how i spend my days?
&oh how i miss baby. Praying hard that everything's gonna be really fine and he's strong enough to go through those obstacles. Please help, GOD.

Seeing you in such state just makes me feel useless. Cheer up honey.

btwn u&me

2009-08-10T14:49:00.003+08:00

somethings are just not to be expose. well, i kept too many things within myself to think that i can bear with it but it didnt last any longer until my brain becomes numb. nobody knows. till then i thought of letting it go, but this brain just aren't working. it stopped. i tend to forget what i wanted to say. but this heart has never been stop bleeding.

tolerating such suffers just makes life dull. being blinded by love making oneself feels so stupid. that's the negative side. does love really conquers all? depends on how u wanna think about it but i guess without honesty, sincerity, faith, confidence, it just won't happen. it might not be your fault, and it's always the other party, and vice versa.

so what's the point? i believe in being patience, no matter how worst it's gonna be. but of course! patience has it limits. and mine is already beyond limit but i guess i still can carry on. maybe because of how great LOVE can be? yes, LOVE. call me a stupid stonehead or whatever it is, it doesnt affect me, at all. i shall never regret. ~~regret~~ is never in my dictionary.

she wasnt like this before, her friends even realised it. maybe he still can't see through how great her love for him is. she do fucking & freaking understand his situation, she even did put herself in his shoe and she already got an answer. but he took a long time just to decide, she's still waiting and hoping deep down here. she still so feel his situation.

people have been saying that you know, things doesnt always go your way. but you see, things have NEVER been go MY way.

but no matter what happen, she will still be as strong as ever to continue her life with her normal routine, cause that's so `aYme. yeah, that's her. living her up people, c'mon. what's so difficult in being positive minder? it's all about ur mindset. u got the right to control it, and never be easily influenced, right baby? never. just listen to ur heart, deeply. (:

whatever happens, she'll end it with just a smile.

lurve ones

2009-07-31T20:37:00.005+08:00

my blog was dead. &now, it's alive. so, nothing much to say. been busy with so many stuff. but i guess, some pictures will do.

overdue pictures taken quite some time ago.
erm, this is NOT me. -.-" alright, it's me with drawings all around my face. was taken at east coast park. we were playing games, those who cannot answer the question, there you go, each line from each person.
so, these are the people who cant answer some questions. there are many rounds. there were many people playing this game actually. but well, what a luck. mlm2 bute main game, otak tak berfungsi ah.
end of the session. (make-up artiste) ;)

oh this one was few weeks back taken at Lakeshore while celebrating JULY BABIES(:

this was erm few months back. had chalet at Pasir ris. While the aunties and uncles were sleeping and doing their own stuff, the youngsters were out to catcth Terminator at Downtown.

okay, they are fun people. but you never wanna mess with us. take care people! gotta to my presentation already. haixxxxx!!

&i miss this farker, idiot! yes, i am freaking angry with this guy here but i miss him.

NS exam

2009-06-01T16:26:00.003+08:00

current venue : fiza's crib

yeah, sorry for the lack of updates, i know. to those who keep critisizin about me not updating, obviously, my internet's down at the moment. ah, and also, lazy to update already.

this morning had NS exam. well, i didnt really study for the paper, so i manage to do pnlly certain questions. bio exam on wednesday, yet to study.

yesterday's chalet wasnt up to my expectation though. started on saturday where i've to go to school, did maths on graphs, which then followed up by practical. rushed back home to grab something which then bro send me off to lakeside and i then proceed to go jln besar. later met sis bihan and off to whitesands. bro fetched and off we to coasta sand. slacked a while, then off to downtown for midnight show. watched terminator. fcuking bored. but okla, haha.

slacked and went back to chalet at 4plus in the morning. revise a lil on my nursing studies and snored all the way till 1plus in the afternoon

went back on sunday night.

tadi motek ngn iffah yg sedang bace buku. ahai! n fyzah is straightening her hair. fyza dulu gemok la siol!! hahaha.. tkleh angz. lol. ahh! need to go off for training le. update again in the next summer. ke saper2 yg sudi nk updatekn pn okeh ah. tk kuaser la.

may be close down any sooner.

and baby i miss u, serious shit. :)

tired

2009-05-03T21:46:00.009+08:00

Just came back home few hours ago. My legs are aching, my eyes are heavy, my mouth is complaining, my brain is thinking of quiting school. Okay, crap. Wednesday is going to be my Bio test already &i've yet to study. too many things are happening around, still, i've to endure. thanks ehh~

Weekdays, as per normal, at school in working shift. Saturday, spend that precious time in JB -.-" pathetic i know. i should have stay at home and do my revision. ohh, im not as studious as u see. =p tak perlu sehh ayme. yeah, so i sacrificed my time for my family which i think i've abandoned them, *laughs* by joining everyone to JB for cousin wedding. To be honest, i dont even know who's getting married, even when i got there. The only thing i know's that my late grandma's sis is there, which is also my grandma ^_^

wake up as early as i could, have to be ready by 9am and off we go. followed mel's dad while parents with my 2nd aunt, letting those makchicks gosipping. just like how we used to(:

so i was freaking bored and sleepy. as usual, in JB, when u eat, there's gonna be flies all over. i think im getting used to it already since the sec 2 or 3 camp. urhg! disgusting, yes i know. well, u got to adapt things fast at times, kan. -.-"

we left the majlis early and off shopping. k, not really shopping, window shopping. though did bought some stuff. but we were running out of time.

went to Giant. -.-"

was way too tired. our feet hurts a lot. had this Thai reflexology. oOoHh~ it feels goooood

finally, went for dinner/supper at Saujana. The food was nice but the satay was errm..nah, forget it. & by then i cant wait to get home.

Sunday

Ahh, hafta wake up early again. been sacrificing. -.-" went off to Taman Jurong for duty which ends about 12plus. Fir then drop erah &i to lakeside and we shoot off to Jp since Erah wanted to find some stuff.

Then erah was being revengeful in a nice manner by accompany be off to Lavender for training. No, it was PSK trial. Yeah, so Assyakirin athletes....zero. woah. bagos seh. =p ended around 6.30 and straight headed back to hometown. otw home, sc braders was chillin. so, joined in. though i was in a freaking tooot mood. cant stand any longer, i just wanna get home and rest, so left at 8plus. &ohh, the bed is calling me already. my butt aches!!!

yes baby, i love you. no matter what. no worries(: xoxo

2009-05-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

self-describe.

2009-05-01T19:58:00.005+08:00

August babies(:
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an 'everything' s peachy' attitude Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of 'that someone'. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by 'no pain no gain' caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

somehow or another, quite true. especially the part where it stated "hates studying". c&p from forward emails(:

January babies
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

that's so ronnie. except for the "down-to-earth" part. hahs(:

ily ronnie.

fun times

2009-04-30T21:42:00.013+08:00

wuhoo! life's getting a lil bit better yet still couldn't resist the sleepyness during lessons. yes, my eyes are forever heavy.
yet i still have to drag my ass all the way from one end to another. damnshit.
endure ! tolerate !

uh, firstly, i'm so disappointed that Pika had to be excused for all trainings due to some reasons.
:( yes, she quited. but as abah said, let's pray hard that you know..... she'll be back asap. oh c'mon sis, inter-grasio is so around the corner already. so many events are coming up, even mini grasio at tampines too. PIKAA!! i miss you!
but no worries sis, berani buat, berani tanggung ah kan. just stay strong to handle all these shitto. jyeah!

next up, school. oh mann. like i said, my eyes are forever heavy. On monday, as per usual. after school, went home instead since training was postponed to tuesday.

tuesday
everything was as per normal except for the last period which was sports and wellness. went into the gym which wasn't too interesting enough for me cos it was too crowded. decided to went out for some badminton game. after soooo long since i played that game. hahs. wow. rushed all the way back to taman jrg for training. had weighing with org2 kampung from west coast. so, a bit kecoh-rable.

wednesday
came late. since s&w was first period. no, not taking advantage, just using the lil bit extra time to sleep, since i've been lacking of sleep. -.-" im sure the rest too. hahs.

thursday
PHASE TEST. Alhamdulilah. i passed!! i was sweating, yes i do. no, i wasnt nervous at all in the beginning. it all started when i sat on the chair before proceding for transfering of patient. my patient was filzah. well, i was the patient at first therefore at the very least i knew what the lecturers are watching out for. but, i did forget quite a number of things, and for goodness sake, the lecturer was kind enough. i cant stop smiling, dunnoe why.

then it was break. later was Bio. but this "clever" group wasnt studying but doing something else. everyone of us, have a letter with our name on. this letter were passed around(within our own clan). the difference in few weeks(first day of sch) back and now. so mine was this :

before :
by iffah - senyap(quiet)
by azhar - step baik(act good girl)
by radyn - step senyap je(act quiet only)
by aina - shy sekali(very pemalu)
by filzah - senyap(quiet)
by fyzah - minah
by dann - fierce to the max
by sham - haven't start talking much, but first look, garang(fierce), tak kuaser peh mood(heck care type of girl)
by yusri - ddk sebelah senyap muke minah(sat beside during orientation, minah's face)

after :
by iffah - giler(crazy)
by azhar - bising(noisy) & ade fierce skit(abit fierce)
by radyn - riuh rendah(irritating i suppose? lol. dunno how to translate)
by aina - kecoh(happening), friendly
by filzah - kecoh(")
by fyzah - kecoh(")
by dann - i think still fierce. hee. (that was wot he wrote)
by sham - same lorr
by yusri - custard mustard -.-"

the part on minah, fierce, custard mustard was of course totally unright.
ehh,my flu is getting worse !! post again later. daaa` (:

oh wait, before that, congratulations uh ias!! masok ntu siot. hahs! weewit. (:
&thanks bf, for everything. still loving you. it's 30th baby(:

stick with me

2009-04-25T20:08:00.010+08:00

cousin & i.
that picture on top is strictly has no link with whatever im gonna post about. just a random pic. taken during cousin's wedding(:

shagged uhh. yeap.

i thought that crazy-shorty would wake me up, but instead, vice versa. wake up about 6.30am get ready and stuff and out to meet pika, thanks for the breakfast. she's coming to my school for some audition. nothing much about it except that there are some usual attention seeker who thought that they are so up to it and are way better than the rest. you know what, confident is fine, but over-confident brings you down. perangai tak perlu buddooo~

met other friends like hidayah and aini, great peeps oi. everything went smoothly and walk back to simei. people had lunch and off to other places. and the routine cycles. oh, tmr is sunday. -.-" uh, great day spend with bf earlier, 'yeah yeah'. hahs.

a boy met a girl. the boy fell in love with the girl. the girl fell in love with the boy. go out together. go meet parents for approval. thumbs up from parents. there goes their kissing. walking down the alley.

okay, nothing serious about those words up there, just something which helps me in my test(: 'yeah yeah~ '

ladies, what would you feel if your partner walking around with you happily but in a split second, turn and look and says, "uh, she's hot." nope, not to you, to a stranger. i dont understand such guys. urhg! -.-"

and uhh guys, you never wanna force girls. it's such a turned-off.
and urrh, some can do whatever they want to you back, it's just about choice.
cause if they don't, then count urself lucky. but if they do, it's gonna be worst as how you've treated them. ever seen such? check it out.

I would like to thank Allah that Along has been discharged, Alhamdulilah. let's continue to pray that he'll get better day by day, God willing. Ameen.

md azroni, make it forever.
it's early days but i k now for sure, that what i feel, is real sincere.
let's make this the best time of our life to be my better half.
you're everything for me on earth.
things goes smoothly with you by my side.
ur smiles, ur laughter, ur jokes, ur cheeky behaviour which i strongly detest, simply make my day.
come watch with me, 17 again. (:

&oh im so sorry about the hot water thingy, y'know(:

ily baby ron.

life at ease

2009-04-24T22:38:00.003+08:00

gaah ! how much i miss my superbfriends . anyhoww , i think i've manage quite well for school . except for the disciplinary terms . sucks . ergh ! oh , just came back from school , met those people in the pics , after quite sometime . jyeah .

school is getting a lil bit better , maybe due to the surrounding that i've to adapt to . tiring is definately mann . yes , the thought of quiting school still do lingers in my mind . gaah , i've to pull it through every minute . endure babe ! -.-"

endure for 2 years , or maybe just 1 year plus(hoping) with the freaking time management . no , im not complaining yet again . still accepting the fact that i've to endure everything , for the sake of myself and family . gundu siot -.-"

there was telematch in school this morning . shouted like one mad girl . my throat hurts a lot .

everyone was happy that today is Friday , cause weekends are drawing near . unfortunately , ayme is trying to be happy as well . only if i've got no school on saturday and training on sunday . fcuk ! but yeah , i should sacrifice these . doing things that interest me . no , i'm not talking about studying eyh puhlease . no more long post for now . (:

mentioned on studies , phase test is so near , not confident enough . talk is cheap , doing it is quite "expensive" . hahs . thank god my class advisor is so much better than other classes . muahaha . oh god, im hungry now . tts all for now .

zZzZ.

ily baby ron !

helpless

2009-04-21T21:19:00.005+08:00

Yeap, i'm missing my lurve ones.

Anyhow, yeah, i haven't been updating much lately. Obviously, i didnt manage my time well. Oh, just so you know if you were to be in my shoes then, plus me being one freaking lazy girl. *grinx*

Oh wait, yesterday was Bro's bday. He's getting older and yet to marry. pfft. That's not the point. I had to rushed all the way from the east back to west side. no, no worries, i'm not complaining. Just being unhappy. met yan & ijal. chill-ed and off home.

Took my shower and off to Sakura Jp. It was Jawa food. Sorry to say, but nothing special about it. I was pissed off all the way. Yes, i showed that fucking face. hahs. sorry mom, dad and bros. why? because i wasn't allowed to go for my training that night. bodoh kan, tau. -.-" anyhow, i wasnt hungry at all.

i made it obvious enough that no one can ever interfere my monday night. it's not about fanatic, it's about priority. i already skipped sunday's training. but i ate my piece and left. took train to lakeside-.-" yes pathetic, just one station. hehs.

it's totally not right if you say i didnt put my family as the first priority. no one is first in my priority. cos i dont put anyone in the list, i dont see the need and purpose. it's just that, when i have to compare and to make decision. i've to be strict with it. i know they knew about it, but they just want me to go their way. sorry, not my style. but thank god, everything when fine. it was a fair game.

watched my athletes. how much i missed pika. hahs. oh yes, and my isyah. woohoho.. i felt that i was shut off from the others. i was in my own world since school starts. i was going through changes and trying to adapt it fast. that i actually have not much time to spend with them already. oh goodness. no no, this is just the beginning. no big deal, for sure. im confident. yes!

and of course, a big smile for abah. missed him so much. jyeah. it's been since i talked to abah. lamer tk jumper oi.

i'm not going to talk much about my full-time school(: just one thing, my group of friends, rock big time. done!

yes baby, im missing you. u know i love you. i want no nonsense, puhlease(:

movie with some thrill

2009-04-12T12:42:00.003+08:00

I know it's kinda plain without pictures. Will put up as soon i get a hold of it, alright.

We started out with movie, it was Fast n Furious. Damn, i should have told others to watch other movie, since i watched it already. Fine. It was since morning, that i have to go to school with that teacher telling me to stay back a while later just because he knows that my next lesson was cancelled. Dammit! So yeah, i was playing good, doing another set of questions. I left when my brain was going to burst.

It was raining heavily and i make my way own all the way just to old JW. Then all the way back to JP for some food for Mother. After 7pm, confirmation was being made. Then it was a last minute agreement for movie. Am fetched the rest and shoot off. While waiting for the rest who came late, we sat outside Plaza Singapura for break. I was restless. For there's a black young cat going around mewing, soooo the manja. plus me, 4 ladies. The cat goes around the other 3 because i kept running away. -.-" WThell?

While the Am, Sani & Shah went to buy food for it, the black cat keep mewing all the way, yes it was hungry. Later, Am came with the milk, it lick it all the way. Kebuluh pe. Then after so long then the food came. -.-"? hahs.

The others then came about 10plus. Yes, we waited freaking long. Okay, not that long. Went back in to get 11 tickets for ourselves each. Had BK meals, then off for the show. Yeah, it was a GREAT show i can say, yeap.

Get back in to the car. We were having break while discussing for next destination. Then Sani came about the crazy idea, well, not really. We did planned this quite long ago and yesterday night, we went adventure, to......OLD CHANGI HOSPITAL. The building......was just kinda freaky. But we have no other intention other than exploring. I just wanna know what and how's inside look like. We took few minutes to decide who wants to go in there. I wouldnt at first, but i did. Out of 6 ladies in total, only 3 of us came in with the other guys except for Shafiee for his leg.

It was freaking dark, for real, damn dark until another group of explorer threw us 2 lightsticks from level 2. But that doesnt help of course, so we came in only with 2 lightsticks plus 2 light from 2 different lighters. Pathetic, i know. Cos we didnt bring any torchlight with us from the start, we didnt even plan to go there. I held on to Su's hand all along at first. HAHA.

Sani and Am was leading the way as Sani was explaining every lil details of that building. Another 2 more guys, AB and Shah guarded at the back while the 3 ladies, me, Ras and Su in the middle. Everything went just fine. We almost went in to the long ward, but Sani was feeling uneasy about going in, and so we turned away and off to another part of the building.

We also almost went up to the roof, but i dont feel like it. Bla bla bla, we made our way back safely to the car where the others were waiting for us. Oh ya, did i mentioned that there's another group? yes there's another 2 more different group in there. The first one was like those mat reps. They were noisy. I walked along the corridor and did heard things, but of cos i didnt mention anything first. My mind was like, this must be them, trying to scare us.

While the other group was playing naughty, shouted at us from level one while we was at level 2 or 3,
"bro! seen anything not?!"
then Sani answered, "no lah."
then they were like, "alah, boring ah like that! go rooftop la, rooftop!"
i cant be bothered man, we then walked off. -.-"

When i went in to the backseat already, while the others were smoking, Am asked, "eh, where's the group just now ah?" i was like, "they went out already i guess." But nope, they were JUST ABOUT to get out of that gate. and then.....they crowd over a guy. yes, right. that guy was "hit".

I quicky went out back from the car to have a look. Everyone was staring at them. I really really thought they were just fooling around until i heard "her" voice. One of my cousin quickly went over them and gave a helping hand. Some were crying for goodness sake, guys! When everything was settle, we drove to Changi Village for the Nasi Lemak. Before that, we passed by the carpark, there were full of, u-know-what. Jambu maut worr!! Kalah Siti Nurhalizah. hahs.

yes, the guys kinda disturbed them. And their reaction just cant make me stop laughing.

We then proceed to Changi Beach to have our meal and then told the rest whatever happened in the building just now. Yes, it was a lil freaky i admit. Some saw this and that. ergh! my eyes was playing good, thanks(: Thank God. haha.

we did take a look back to the pictures that ab took. one of it, erm, kinda strange. hmm. well, thats it for now. gtg.

people say

2009-04-08T11:48:00.004+08:00

Wait, first of all, congratulations to my beloved BLCB members for attaining back the Silver. Good job people. So proud of you(:

Now, wow. I have so much to say. But i prefer to keep it short. Well, i felt that, the ego covers it all, till that you're too blind to see the truth. We cant please everyone at one time, but we can try.

You'll never know how important being honest is till one day, you'll experience it yourself or hit by karma.

Oh, i just have so much to say. I shall just keep it to myself.

5 newborn hamsters!

`LOVESronnie.

lazyness!

2009-03-29T19:57:00.004+08:00

i admit, i was being plane lazy. yes. -.-" argh!

anyway, Baby was being different lately. i don't know what's really bothering that dude but i was affected. yes baby, do some flashback, will you? thanks.

as instructed by Boyfriend, here goes my says. Yesterday was Saturday. Duh! okay. do u people participate in the 60 EARTH HOUR? hahs. simply put, i dont. someone was so eager enough for blackouts to happen(: but end up, it depends on ourselves. bahluuul.

I almost skip school yesterday. I don't know, i just don't feel like studying. I was feeling very tired. I just wanted to rest. But of course, pull it through. -.-" For once, i came EARLY!! yes, for real, i came in to class way before my lecturer did. OOHHSS(: but i didnt do my work, chatted with this girl till Mr Ang came in. hahs. i felt like sleeping by then -.-"!!!

After lesson, drop by NTI to meet baby. Baby's hot yesterday. hahs. Baby's mom wore green, "ziza lawa eh, gerram!" *inside joke* that was freaking hilarious. Did nothing except that i just sat with baby while he was busy doing his work, dj. b, pelamin boleh tahan lawa ah. p i raser i buat agi jambz seh(: ahhs, yeah baby, two songs. I told u, cuter than didicazli kay(:

Once again, lazy. No, i was tired, so shoot back home.

Today, was even worse. I did pulled through but up to no satisfaction. Woke up early and met Abah at Chevrons for bowling tournament. I didnt do my best. i know. :( head off straight to jbcc for training. No says about those. i can't be bothered.

that's enough.

`aYmeLOVESronnie.

usual lifestyle

2009-03-26T21:11:00.005+08:00

It's been hard. I felt exhausted. hmm...

Firstly, Grandma went for Umrah last Monday. Send her to Terminal 1 and i shoot off earlier then the rest and went off for training which was as per usual. Anyway, pray hard that everything's gonna be so fine there, Insyallah.

Tuesday, visited Along(eldest in malay) at noon. Went to N.U.H with elder bro. My legs went weak looking at his state. Too bad we had to just stand outside and see through the glass door. Low heartbeart. Speechless.

Wednesday. Get to went inside the room. This time, the hearbeat went freaking high at such a fast speed. He was being aggresive. Only Angah(2nd eldest) &i was in the room, staring at Along's condition. Keep moving his legs. Felt like he wanted to say/express something that i just couldn't tell, i dont know.

I hold on him tight, he grabbed my palms hard. Tried to make him calm down, soon, the heartbeat went just fine. Keep staring with nothing in thoughts, except for hidden tears, only til Angah told me that it's time for others to take a look at him. Softly pat on his forehead, and left. Till then, i prayed really hard. Get well soon, Md Norhan Jasmani.

At midnight, while babyboi was neglecting me,(: i fell asleep. Only until i was awake when elder brother shouted at me. With full of "enthusiasm" waking me up. Only then i found out, it was about my hamster. -.-" sickening brother, u see.

Yes, BOTH my hamster ran away. I dont really know how they actually manage to jump off from that high cupboard, but i think it was because of that useless loose green rooftop of their house. So, at 12 midnight, i took it away and put it back in its cage safely, and LOCKED them!!

I find that the story was uber stupid-yet-hilarious. Elder brother was happily and was concentrating playing dad's psp when the hamster somehow get on the psp's screen. I thought that...well, he could just catch it and put back in the cage. But freaking hell!! he threw that psp away due to SHOCKNESS and dashed in to my room. -.-"

So, now left one pathetic hamster which ran away without my permission (freaking hell!) and nowhere to be found till now :( see, from 4 hamsters, now left ONLY 2! One ran away and another died. ayme oh ayme.......

Thursday, met si pendek giler. Usual things happening around.

Ahh, tomorrow. Let's see.

`aYmeLOVESronnie

random

2009-03-18T23:36:00.005+08:00

macam tindik hidung pula ini burung(: nice? i know. hahs.

anyway! today was kind of tiring, i felt. oww...

i kept thinking and thinking this past few days. thinking of making the righteous choice. jyeah, i've finalised it.

Tiada apa yang paling sukar dan tiada apa yang paling berharga, selain daripada keupayaan untuk membuat keputusan. -Napoleon Bonaprte.

&therefore, i know in life, we've got to go through all the ups and downs that God have set for us. Thus, mindset has got to be changed as well. I knew it! I know i can change! Yes!

Jalan menuju kebahagiaan itu tidak ditaburi bunga mawar yang harum, melainkan penuh duri dan pahit. - Wiiliam Shakespeare.

congrats

2009-03-17T20:07:00.006+08:00

Okay, first of all, Congratulations to Katastrophe for clinching the 2nd place in Gegaran 2009 Competition. Somebody's too proud already-.-" haaa~

&also, one of them, was so freak out of THUNDERS(??!!?) On Sunday when it was raining heavily with on-going thunders. Gosh!-.-" hee~

Ahh, many things happened but my mind is now at lost.

i just deleted a full chunk of words. -__-''

farking asshole

2009-03-14T18:59:00.007+08:00

~~**** : Ok, wish you all the best in life and pls dont msg or kol me animore starting from now, jus think tat i never existed in ur life.~~

ME : u're being so unreasonable!!

~~**** : Hate me cos thats the only way u can forget me....bitch!~~

ME : u fucking big ass unreasonable asshole!! if that is how u want it to be, fine! u can't even trust me this once.

~~**** : trust u in what?~~

~~ME : u dun wanna cntct me cos u cn freakishly noe wats gona happen. &im telling u this, im att n im gonna get away all the past feelings n nvr shud i fall for someone else.~~

~~**** : Even when i fall for you?~~

ME : u told me bout thinking if my guy wanting to noe another gal. nw u think, if i were to b urs, n he fall for me. u wouldn't want me to go to him, don't you? So, i'll stick to whom ive att to. n u NVR fall for me, cos im simply not ur cup of tea.

~~**** : Issit?ur nt my cup of tea?u can read me cos ur god?then pls, stick wit whom u choose...get out of my life..n live happily~~

ME : i don't read. im unlike u who can see future. bt tts wot u've ever said to me. forgotten everything? great. forget bout everything then!

**** : Okay,great then....hate me that much already?take me out from ur life then.....don't love me then cos im not ur cup of tea animore, im just an idiot egoistic guy who is very unreasonable.. pls get out of my life, dont send me another msg cos im not interested in u animore...

ME : 1stly, i didnt say ur nt my cup of tea. 2ndly, i nvr hate u. 3rdly, uve never ever said that if ur interested in a low class gal, ayme. n lastly, u cant force me if i still want to txt/kol u. cos i regard ****as my friend. just lyk how u regard ur friends.

**** : im not ur friend, ur nt mind. yes, i cnt force u but i can ignore u.. low class?thoughts become ur actions,what u think is what u will become as i nvr said, bt u did...pls get out of my life.. im nt what u think i am...pls dont msg me animore princess..i beg u dont.

u know what, im telling u this, IM FREAKINGLY UPSET WITH SUCH DISGUST BEHAVIOR OF URS. i am even further away NOT who u think i am. it's been 9 months plus, n u never change as such! EGO. yes you are. u keep telling me stuff, therefore, i am who i am right now. better than the old ayme. i was freaking RUDE to EVERYONE. finally, i realised my limits. up to a certain standard. figure out the rest.

~~so much of sacrifisation, indeed!!~~

~~farking asshoooolllllee~~~

F O R G I V E N

updates(:

2009-03-12T14:00:00.006+08:00

Hey! yeah, it's been since that i update. Since im updating today, obviously im free today(: Okay, so far my life is doing good. As per usual, quite busy with life everyday. In a week, about 2 to 3 days of rest. At times, none. Well, previously, on last Friday, had BBQ @ Lakeshore again. Yes, it was great. It was fun having them, fun people, around. &yes, we did played catching in the pool, IN THE POOL. =.="

Imagine having `aYme as ur catcher, it'll take hours! Why? Cause i CANT swim. DENG!=.=" Finally, i was the catcher, and they decided to change game. LOL. &of cos, without fail, we played police and thief yet again in the jacuzzi. Nyeahahaha.

About 10plus, headed for shower. Listened to various stories, FUN. From ghost, to stupid criminals to even "innocent" criminals. From an experienced policeman &woman, you see. We were either laughing away or in fear. HAHS. Mind you, it was already around 1 to 2 in the morning. Some even suggest we go for adventure. Goodness(?!)

For Saturday! As per usual, had school. Bbyboi fetched home. Got back home and about 7.30pm went out to meet Sis B. Met her at Clementi. Before that, met bbyboi again, at Jurong East and tag along, for midnight show. The show? It was My Bloody Valentine, 3D. baik paa... Catched it with the others, too many people to be mentioned lah. It's all about VIOLENCE!! i admit, i was in fear watching it. =.=" The show was great, but the ending... heart pain man! hahs. good job for the Director though. =p Catch it! (: too bad he wasn't there.

Took cab back home with Sis Rina and Su. Pathetic, i searched for my key in my bag, &it wasn't there. So i was thinking that i didnt bring my keys along. So its fine, called up my 2nd brother, he's still in Yishun. So, decided to wait for 1st bro. While waiting, i heard a loud "AH!" &unfortunately, i was alone. Usually there will still be human beings around my void deck, thouse poeple who laze around.

But it was already one or two in the morning. Obviously, they are gone. I brought myself together and walked up to the next block. There was a petrol car. I was relieved! HAHS. I sat at the void deck having few passerbys staring at me at one kind. =.="(?) As i was about to walked back to my void deck assuming my bro has arrived, 3 policemen came down with a handcuffed lady. HAHS. What a luck, i mean for that criminal. :D

&yes, bro arrived, went back home sweet home......zZzZz before i wanted to sleep, i found my key in my bag. =_____=!!!

Then it was Sunday. Had to wake up freaking early to Bedok. Had a long waiting period!! just for a photoshoot. Dammit. tak ker bodoh? Nvm, patience is a virtue(; Thanks to Sis Lina with husband & son for everything. Rush back to Taman Jurong for an event. Another fun-yet-successful event. Congrats Fityan Assyakirin Crew(:

By then, i was exhausted, got back home straight and re-charge.

Oh! This is the 3rd time, we got another new lecturer. My previous-hot-lecturer is away for attachment. But thank GOD, my current lecturer is wonderful. I mean the way he teached, is simple yet in details. But he called me the-late-comer having me coming in to class at 7.30pm. C'mon man! It's only half an hour late. -.-" The thought of quiting school, hahs, i dont think so. I think i shall continue(:

Met Ijal, Ian & Fad after sch at Jp for supper after few days for not meeting them. jyeah!(: too bad Acik wasn't there :(

That's about it for updates. Lazy to elaborate more. =p

Oh, i've been receiving too many emails about those forwarded messages. Too many things happening around. Even those VERY old messages, they keep forwarding till now(?) But yeah, some are of course, an eye-opener for me. In my mind, macam semakin kecoh hidup ni.

Ah, &about Elfaeza & Arman(Fadhlur), it was for real(?) hahs. Cos i did saw them together recently nearby. So yeah, it has been published. (: Not bad huh. Hee~

Ah, i need a rest, Have a nice day! (:

2009-03-06T16:36:00.000+08:00

updates

2009-03-03T17:41:00.007+08:00

phew! free time now. uh, having flu. arhg! hahs. anyways, my updates. Last Sunday, i was late. Hee. Thanks to my babe, Erah, for being punctual before me. I was suppose to report at 8.45, but i woke up late and thus reached Taman Jurong about 9plus. kire ok lah tu=p

Purpose was to do fund raising. ((: i loike. &so i was stationed at level 2 during kuliah. Later, brought everything up to level 3 to finish up stocks. Kecoh-rable 3 musketeers, Fam, Nas & Fique. -.-''

the NICE badges(:
Settled everything and went out to Fork&Spoon for lunch. Get back to mosque and changed. 2 buses arrived and my athletes &i proceed to Bedok for photo taking. Kecoh-rable in bus. Too bad my clique and i wasn't in the same bus with the guys. Therefore, only Pika & i was being " noisy". HAHS. We sang from Jurong all the way to Bedok. Fuuh! Canteqq~ hee(:

After centre photo taking, went back to Jurong. It was raining cats &dogs. LOL. u know i know. hahs. Da kurniaan Tuhan(: Got back to mosque safely. Search for umbrellas and off to SC. Chill-ed with bros.

Finally! I did it!! I stacked up the cards. Hee. Bangga siot((: Wan & Ijal tried to do, but up to no avail. u guys FAILED! muahahhaaha~ Don't mind Acik's face-.-"

Without any disturbance as Acik was busy doing some recordings beside me, weewit~ lawa sey? hahs. although the bottom card was already slunted. jahahha=p

Monday
Went for usual training at night, except that i came late after Isyak due to something.

Today
I miss juniors. I mean these hamsters. They keep sleeping maybe due to the "cool" weather. hurrhurr. Can't disturb them :( hahs. One died. That cutie fighter. :(
Tido jer keje kau!! tk kesiankn aku ke?!:(
cage sebesar-besar maner pon tido nk menyelit! sah ni Ijal ngn Acik! (:
`aYme junior (:
Then went to SC, lepakz.
jakun. busy arranging pictures. what pics?
these pics. LOL. All six are Ijal's. hee. adorable? the top right corner. hahs
Uh, got to do my revision already. Take care! (:
Aku sayang Abg Roni! hee

i dislike u

2009-02-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

say whatever u want. tell whatever u want.
it's ur luck if i were to entertain u then.
u cant force me, never.

think whatever u want of me.
i cant be bothered.

u treat me good, i treat u better.
u treat me rude, it's gonna be freaking "rude-r"

Gaaah~~
Achik junior, Ijal junior, Wan junior & Ayme junior is busy sleeping, in it's cage.
pffft~

updates

2009-02-26T19:27:00.011+08:00

Heeyyyaa~ Wow, kinda miss blogging. HAHS. Anyways, three different catogaries for me to update. Well firstly of course, bout my family. Nothing much though. Went through quite a lot these days. Too many to list down i guess.

Finally! Today is the day where i actually stay at home, unlike previous days. BUT! i did went out to Sembawang accompany my eldest brother for some Jobfair at Jeletung CC. HAHS. Bf was right. I can never sit still at home. But today i guess i did rest much enough already after going through all those busy weeks/months. haha. ayme mcm paham(;

Sorry to those who are actually concern enough to know what's bothering me for the past few weeks. I cant explain much myself. Busy is just what i can answer.

So, one of those days, i cant bother to remember whats the date, but i had a game with Dad. &he won unfortunately. Damn! He's really getting more "daring" in a way. Hahs. well, it was because i always tend to win =p It's okay. I know where i stand(: *laughs*

We played Bowling at Downtown East. We were in lane 2 when later a family of 3 came in lane 2. It was a superduperuber adorable lil boy. His name was Wei Wei. HAHS. Maybe around his 4 or 5 of age.

how cute~ haha. he played all three games. His parents just sat there doing their own stuff. Okay, his dad was much more supportive i guess, cheering him after all throws. LOL. Yes, he THREW the ball, not ROLL. &there's once the ball almost hit his uncovered feets. Well, foreigners. I dont think they care much about that, or maybe just unaware of those rules. &of course, i was smiling all the way looking at him played(:

After bowled, we went to erm, Pasir Ris Park if im not wrong. Yeah. Cycled all the way. Upon reaching, parents went to find space to sit while Mel &i rented 2 seats bicycle. She sat at the back of course, hahs, &we cycled all the way till arnd 6pm i guess. Long hours. Hahs. My family rocks, love them. (:

Now, a lil about my lovelife? Okay, so far, everything was fine. It wasnt long enough but there's quite a lot of incidents here &there that probably make me realised something. Yes, i came about this and thought that i am now no-more hard-headed(translated from malay) hehs. Of course, i still am, i dont think a person can easily change within a month isnt it?

But unfortunately, i might still as rude as before upon talking to a guy? No, i hope Erah's not right. HAHS. Abusive towards guys? NO NO, i dont think so. I love Azroni. Yes i do(: So, a lil about bf? He's SENSITIVE!!! hee=D Jealousy too!! Even at times before asking me first! Adoi, susah beb. Cemburu buta. hahs. But yeah, i understand why he's like that. Let that just be between us.

Quite understanding at times. Freaking irritating at times too(: The rest, let that just be my secret. hehs. *cheeky smile* Yes, he pampered me too much i guess. Sacrificing himself just for his girl. He's mainly just too sweet. I love you for who you are. Whatever has happened this past few days, i'm truly sorry for behaving as such. I admit i was different before i met you. But now, i realised how fragile life is. Still, i know i have too much things too change in myself.

Having you by my side besides my family, i discovered about myself. That's where i know my true self after i met you. I was lost before this, after some incidents. You accepted me for who i am without any regrets. I never want this to end and hope it stays, forever.

&lastly, my brotherhood! (: Those friends who bring thousand of smiles on my face. HAHS. i love them too(:

back

2009-02-25T17:33:00.001+08:00

The owner is back to her normal self.

wuahaha! stay tune!

ronnie

2009-02-17T07:23:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. I'll never wanna lose you.

Ya Allah, make me stronger to face this reality. I'm falling.

mistakes. weak. habitat.

mistakes. weak. habitat

mistakes. weak. habitat.

give me another chance to prove others that i can change, please.

feeling random

2009-02-13T13:32:00.005+08:00

first of all, i miss babyboi. urhg!

I've no idea why do i feel something's not right, or maybe i'm just feeling empty, thus i'm so weak right now. Almost all my Saturdays are gone. My weekends are already gone for so long, but i stated this because it was spent on lessons.

Stupidity. I thought that studying is simply a waste of time, comparing enjoying with your loved ones like friends or family. Like duh! it was a freaking stupid mindset, i know. What can i say, parents sacrificed too much. I know i've been such a disappoinment.

In such a state, i've to sacrificed almost everything just to get back what they are hoping for. Too much of my nonsence that they've tolerated so far. Although they might had enough of me, they are simply strong enough to face reality, unlike some people, some IMMATURE people.

Sometimes, i know i was doing the wrong things, but somehow i wasn't strong enough to defeat the devils, eventhough i was brought up so well. But end up, it's still up to me to decide though. `Cos they knew they can never force me to do things which i don't want to. Caring souls have been advising me here &there, it lasted for few days or weeks.

Oh, the world ain't perfect, similarly goes to each and every soul.
Some people simply loves judging others, accusing others, being such a BIG FUCK KPO or even create untrue stories.

So random. I'm so afraid that all the good things might end once again. Well, that's life isn't it. Meeting different people through out your life, overcome such people who pretends, omg.

I think it's time to stop being childish, in a way.

hosp trip

2009-02-10T13:40:00.004+08:00

The trip to SGH last Sunday! (: here goes those pics. Credits to my Sahabat Setie, Md Noh(: haha. full of craps. &also, the day where i cabot Sunday training and played Pool with Achik, Ijal &Salihin. HAHS. No la, not say cabot lah, i was already late, thus coach excused me(: thx pak, ur the best(:

buah tangan daripada kami kepada ibunya Zul(: "tangan nya ambil balik ya, buah aja." hahs

ade de je org nk amek gambar aku-.-" candid!!!

when the sahabat setia met(:

no no, i wasn't trying to dance at all, it was candid. pe la mamad, tk sempat amy nk pose. hahs.

martin, my head and zul's. -.-" lol

nice one. hahs. dont mind one extra head, u know where(:

BYE! (:

brother lurp kuz

2009-02-08T22:09:00.006+08:00

yesterday's noon was a sleepy noon-.-

today was not. hahs. met sahabat setia Noh &Zul at Taman Jurong then proceed to Lakeside. before that, met bbyboi, for a few mins-.-" he was washing those plates till can see his face. k bedek. hahs. then go LS MRT to meet the others. Went to SGH to visit Zul's mom. Auntie, all the best for tmr's operation hor. Dengan berkat doa kami sekeluarga, insyallah segalanya akan selamat. Ameen.

chill-ed with usual gang then.

today's not a sleepy day but it's a tiring day(:
*waves gd-bye*

fuck those kpos

2009-02-07T18:19:00.006+08:00

well, ytd accompanied ian bestie. beh Pika kecoh. lol. Went out with parents at night wondering about Jp. I was feeling hopeless. Oh Gosh~~ nvm.

i got smashed-ice-cream on my face by this bestie idiot. -.-" Budoo~ *laughs*

i feel like closing down my blog. idk.

anyway, once again i repeat, whatever u people wanna say, it's not gonna affect me. I might wanna consider though if i were in a mood. Im so cant be bothered with those "totally-spies" or kpos who just cant bear to see me leading such a happy life. There's always those who wanna hurt or even talk crap or serious shit with me.

i know, being in my state right now, you always wanna bring me down. Tell u what, i dont. Say whatever u got to say or u want to, i dont mind. I have my own ways to control my reactions. Call me whatever u want to, babe, i simply cant be bothered. hey, GET A LIFE, alright?

Anyway! had meeting in the morning. bf sacrificed his morning just to fetch and send me-.-. thanks b(: &Thanks to Sis Dila for the treat. HAHS. I was obviously sleepy before that. 10am leh, which turns to 11. LOL. It's ok. Went home straight after discussion and went back to my former sch. I dont really know what happened, but it was seriously freaking bad. Sorry people(:

Ahhs, headed to Macd PM and off to home.
Im feeling something, i feel like, erm..i cant wait for school? FERG LA.-.-"

Yessa! Nas also get nursing. Weehu~ got fren fren. Jyeah!(:

ma loved ones

2009-02-06T18:51:00.004+08:00

im so lazy to blog nowadays. (: i guess, just pictures will do. what a mood~
anyway, many are wondering about my previous post. well, i just thought that i should be evil as i was back again. ppl tend to take advantage if u were to be angel at all times, perhaps. nah, depends. we'll see.

lepakz time

tangkap sachok brader kuz(: yg sbelah tu erm,, ntah..

achik dlm dunie sendiri. hahs

sambil minum melihat wanita jelita=p

after spend time with bf &braders, spend time with ma blood bros.

ni extra je. hahs.

da besar minom susu...blang bapak...!

ehk! (;

i spent most of my time with all my loved ones ytd(:(:(:

sorry

2009-02-05T13:18:00.003+08:00

I'M SORRY. COUNT ME OUT. I'M LEADING THE OTHER PATH.

THANK YOU.
&OH, I'VE CHANGED MY HANDPHONE NUMBER.

met boifey(:

2009-02-03T20:27:00.005+08:00

i've no idea how to put in words in here but, erm, let me try. but currently, not in a mood. idk y, so don't ask me y, or i'll get irritated by u forever. -.-" k crap

So, yeah, tmr was such a long day. Too many things to be done actually. I shall skip the intro due to some reasons. So, i went to ITE Simei for my interview, for the course called Nursing-.-. I was like having 2nd thought for that particular course. GOSH! To cut it short, i rather take my higher nitec offered course in Dover, for real.

&oh, the ladies who interviewed me.....erh, no further comments. Sorry darl for that erm, "tkperlu- reaction". I went out from the room and just grab my bag and go, leaving darl behind. HAHS. Sorry ok-.-' Thank God, he was understanding enough(:

Another thing that makes me having 2nd thought was the students. Alright, i shall just smile, no further comments. Out from the school, we proceed to West Coast awhile met Wandi & Epul. Lepakz, and off for training. Funny peeps.

&i love babydarljust cant be bothered with my craps-.-" HAHS.

&today! i met my girlfie(: ma lesbian partner. amcm b..sihat?(: fetch Pika from Clementi then proceed to IMM. We talked. We really talked instead of crap-ed. Waduh~ mcm paham. K whatever, i love this minah(: &lastly off to Pioneer Mall macd for dinner.

Met ian bestie awhile before going home. That professor crap a lot-.-"
Nyeahahas!

Let this last, please.

alls well ends well

2009-02-01T11:25:00.005+08:00

Nothing much too elaborate. Met ma girls ytd for a movie, such a waste that Fiza babe & Erah couldn't make it due to work. aww~ anyways, the three of us sure had fun with each other stupid lame jokes-.-" &watched Alls well Ends well, if i'm not wrong. I always don't get the title right. *slaps*

Proceed to Shab's crib arnd 9plus. THANKS((:

Met Chika at 12noon. We sure eat a lot during the show. From the start of the show, till the end of it, there's still food and keep thrashing them into mouths. -.-" Had baked rice and nachos. As usual, Shab will keep complaining along the way. From beginning even till going home. Uber self-concious, that's her. HAHS.

Go round &round searching for stuff. Then took train headed back to Boon Lay. But, Shab &i, to Jurong East, THANKS((: In the train, pathetic kids. We sat at the 2 seated cabin, but all three of us fit in. -.-"

Ahh, then back to Boon Lay. THANKS((: spend a lil time at Pondok. waaa~!!
Time's up and I went up to home-sweet-home with Shab. Doing our stuff, &few mins later, Wan reached downstairs &fetched Shab home..............................

I was a happy girl then. OMG! :DD
Enough, here goes pichaass~

It was cramped-.-" 2 seats shared by 3 big butts. HAHS(:

happy people.

Few stops before Jurong East, someone got irritated &thus sleep. LOL. BYE!

Please, take step by step. Don't rush(:

first met ian(:

2009-01-31T19:58:00.005+08:00

Ohhs, yesterday was totally a chaos. Tiring. I should really take it slow. Anyways, Nasuha came before going to Band practice, &i still haven't taken my shower yet, OH! She went off i had my shower. Then it was the game being played before i actually went straight to school to visit BLCB.

Out of 3, there's only one that caught my attention. &thus till now. Well, they're right, there's actually few good guys out there. You just have to wait, play along &caught. Not all are bad eventually. Okay, that's enough. I don't see a need to elaborate further.

Make my way to BLSS, doing usual stuff. How i wished i still could play my clarinet for the band still(mcm phm)-.- &Syahrul didn't keep his words by not playing barang2 with us. urhg!-.- Anyway, i miss the old times, 2006&`07 batch.

2nd best bud during our time in BLCB. How are you now, dude? lol(:

After the prac, proceed to Pioneer Mall. Thought of having my dinner because i was in hunger. hahs, but mom texted me saying there'll be family dinner at 8pm. GOSH! The food's gonna be.....CRAB. I'm not in favour in eating crabs as it was freaking hassle &thus that reaction-.-" HAHS. But i took back my words, `cos yesterday night's cooking was awesome. Nyeahahaz~

Full. Proceed down to void deck around 9pm accompanying plus helping(: bro doing his bike. It was in a terrible mess. HAHS. So, touch up here and there. &guess how long does it took? Solid 5 hours, which ends at 2 in the morning. Keje over-time pe saa. HAHS.

Ijal called along the way informing me that they're chilling at usual place. Came down and joined. As usual, they're of great company, hahs. Too bad, Umar wasn't there.

Shoot of about 10 and accompany Ian to buy his food at Pioneer Mall and back to void deck. Saw Syahrul going to 7-11 too, "tktau nk balek paa.."

Ohhs, today was quite fun hang out with my long lost babes. HAHS. Upload those tmr. &ohh, dear ronnie, it's okay, 4th is obviously not bad. Never give up, honnneyy(: keep ur dreams coming and u might achieve it(",)

*"my instinct tell me something, but it's not important for now."*
you know what friend, i have instincts too. you wanna take it as another coincidence too?

Jae result

2009-01-30T08:21:00.005+08:00

I don't know if i should judge him or not but HAHS! he didnt smile at all. Instead, that fiery look for freaking shit sake. Step nk mampos sak. Tkleh seret oi. Uh, i was talking about Shahril Ishak-.-"

NNNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
okay, i'm sure others got their posting as well. &now, guess what i got? It's my 3rd choice! ELECTRONICS ENGINEERING in ITE WEST(Dover)

FFFEERRGG la!!

Budoo Budoo Budoo Budoo Budoo Budoo -.-

meeting

2009-01-29T13:49:00.004+08:00

Mood sucks-.-"
Anyway, yesterday was nothing much. Had meeting at night. Some are wondering about my life. Hahs. Tell you what, don't. (:

Ohs, this morning, received a call saying that i'm shortlisted for the nursing course. I still couldn't make up my mind if i were to choose nitec or higher nitec. Some says that i should better take higer nitec. But as for me, i always wanted nursing, but the problem is, it's nitec. Higer nitec is paramedic but still have to go for nitec nursing as well.

Woah, my mind is really in slow motion(!) -.- There's like both advantage & disadvantage. arhg!

Forget it about it. Before going for meeting, went JP met friends. Oh, that feelings struck. Only God knows. Then it was archade, &i lost. -.-"

when ur chairman didnt realise u were cam-whoring during meeting, here it goes...

Okay, erm, the mood is really getting on my nerves. Get back real soon(:
Bye(:

&u, fuck off with ur beautiful lies. I'm not interested. Get lost. I don't need u in my life.

fishing at marina south

2009-01-27T20:57:00.007+08:00

Ohhs, 2nd post. (: bored u see~ 1st post was about ytd, and here, today(: duh~

so....YoHa~ ( wahsey, so long nvr say this word -.- ) hahs, anyway, just now was erm, how do i describe? Fun, okay lar, average. Bored to death actually. Cos i was feeling super duper sleepy and wanna tell everyone off. Enduring tho(:

So, jyeah, went fishing at Marina South. Um, about 17 fishes caught. Okay, that part only i guess, was at least, fun-.-" Well, it was mainly because, the venue was uber dull. Nothing special. So entertained myself by playing with the dead and half-alive fishes. Sounds stupid, yah, it is. *slaps head*

Bro Sani.

again &amir.

LOL. are u ppl laughing? cos i am, see! ice lehh! i put in, then few secs dead le. muahahha!! this was the 2nd fish, 1st fish were caught but i wasnt there cos went to shop. Then aunt fried it, erm, not as tasty as i thought.

ikan keli, got one china guy gave us cos he just catch for fun*smile* THANKS AHH! God bless u=p
looks like todak fish, but it's not. Forget the name-.- sharp siols.
kurau fish. given too, but bro threw it away. so kind ahh? *laughs* sapa mau p mkn kan.

small&adorable. but not nice-.-

Okay, done. THANKS AHH for your time(:

Insomnia.

tennis

2009-01-27T10:34:00.006+08:00

Had tennis at Lakeshore yesterday night. Jyeah, fun. Hahs. Nothing much better to do. Came down to B's crib, A.B caught in action. HAHS. can find him? (:
Ahhs, then the lights were auto-off. It was suppose to be at 10pm, but the timer, don't really know why. We were playing in court one, then those tangan-gatal kids were playing with the switch, and we had to waste few mins to wait for the lights to be on again-,-"

Thus, we shifted to court two, same thing happened, but it was about the timer. Can't do anything.=.=" Then, went up to B's crib, grab some clothes and back down to the pool.(: Nah, jacuzzi to be exact. I don't swim(((: Furthermore, it was already at night, the pool was really cold, unlike jacuzzi(;

HAHS, we played games in one of the jacuzzi. Fun siol. Lame stupid games ah but i find it cute plus fun. *laughs* ^^ we played um, coaching. lol. Bihan was our "coach", teaching us yoga-in-pool. lol. crap sehh. then change to zombie game. FOOK. It was hilarious.

LOL. One person be the zombie and had to scare the rest, the person who laughs first lost. Idiotically fun. :DD Then last one was the police, thief &victim thingy.
I like to move it, move it, u like to move it, move it, we like to..MOVE IT!

(OKAYS, INSIDE JOKE)

Cool~ ok, whatever it is. Shoot off arnd 12, bro fetched me home.

&erm, had my supper first, alone=.=" hee~

irritating biol-sasau.=p

HAHS, we crap-ed a lot. Sleepy, zzzzZZ. Idiot face=.="
ahh, went fishing again today(: loads of them this time, wee~

take care(:

if we're really meant to be, i'll never wanna leave you.

noticeboard

2009-01-25T21:10:00.006+08:00

Spend my day doing Fityan Assyakirin's noticeboard. HAHS, like finally!!! (: Wuhoo!! We're so proud!! lol. Okay, my partner Afidah &i finally have the time to meet up to update our noticeboard.

Ohhs! &of course, in the mosque, as usual, there WILL be weird people around. Patience is a virtue. Thank God, i controlled my anger. He almost got hit i think. Nvm, irritating people, talked to us at the wrong timing. =.=!! grr!

anyway, uh, i leave it to the pics(:
we were enthu, really. Concentrating, right Afidah? (: lol.

wuahaha, make a mess out of it! (:

Now, it's almost done, our Fattayat(ladies).

Our Fatta(guys)(:

Finally, the outcome. Wuhoo~ I know it's kinda simple cos it took us just a few hours doing it, from about after Zuhor to Asar on the dot. Well, what can i say, we do things fast&furious(: lol.
But wait!! Of course, this is not the end yet, there will be one more board to go. HAHS. Let's see, when is the next free time from us(: hahs. busy people, busy!!(;

Wuhooo~ Our current YDO, trophy BBIIGG!! proud ! lol. (;

this one, um, just ur another senior exco okayy. =.='!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *laughs!*
Jyeah, everything's done, performed prayer. Then Afidah shoot home &i was bored. HAHS. So, being a very good daughter of Amir's, i went in to the class, waiting for Sis to finish her teaching. `aYme the "NEW-STUDENT" lol. mcm paham. nah, i was siting right at the back doing nothing, maybe just cam-whoring around the class(; Felt so weird, cos i'm not the madrasah student there but i'm in there, u know.. like bdk-extra-tk-uat-apaper-dlm-klaz. k whatever. (((((:

BBYYEE!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU, erm. YOU, okayy(:

guys sucks

2009-01-24T20:44:00.004+08:00

I don't know if i should be angry, sad, or disappointed. I'm lost, once again. &i swear it's all my fault yet again. I apologise if ur hurt. knaper tk serik-serik lagi amy? knaper degil sgt amy? knaper kepaler batu sgt kau amyyy?!

Now, looking on the brighter side, i get to know more about myself. Yeah, i might be weird at times, but it was just a moment of being fickle, i bet. Creating own trouble, &now had to face it. It started all perfectly wonderful, but ended up like thrash.

I couldn't even make up my mind to decide. Although, i was nagged thousands of times, &i wanna thank u for that, but i guess, i really need more time. I don't know if i should hate myself. Look, it's not about i'm pushing everything away, but it's just ain't the right time, yet.

I know perhaps i am the one stirring everything together and got myself jammed and confused. Stupid. Freaking stupid.

Alright, maybe, after letting out and with someone to talk to, I'm back to myself. Now, i know what to say, &what i want exactly.

But what about the other party? =.= da la temper, waduh~ ape nk jadi ngn dunie ni.

bila lembut hati, org tersalah anggap. Da tersalah anggap satu hal, ada yg naik tocang plak tu, melampau. Lalu, ubahlah sikapnya dgn cara kasar. bila da kasar, org ngadu sakit hati pulak. pastu, hampa, nuding jari pula mengatakan bahwa dia kurang adab, sombong. wow, so, which do u prefer? um , nah, i don't need ur ans.

2009-01-22T21:15:00.002+08:00

oh hoho!! the interview sucks. seriously. and i hurt my ankle. baik paa!! was walking at the carpark then the ground was like lobang2 those kind, then ronnie called, without realising, i took the wrong step, fuh! paaap! my ankle was terribly in pain. HAHS. belo, ketawer sendiri. k whatever. CRAPPPP!

oh hoho!! make another new friend, Sharifah. The nurses there was like, urhg! forget it. i don't think i wanna take up the course even if i were shortlisted. too much for the consequences. rather take the normal sch, without the traineeship prog. =.=

den off to Bukit Gombak, to find the cafe. met Ronnie b. Oh, before that, another new friend met. Malaysian. HAHS. His mom worked in the cafe and he was there waiting. I was bored waiting for Ronnie b, then i saw he was holding a newspaper.

`aYme : erm, may i...the newspaper.. sorry, i'm bored.
tt guy : oh, sure, have it.
`aYme : ah, thanks.
tt guy : *smile*

gosh! lembut siol dier!! hahs. weewit. =p no, it's not what u think, he's straight. His face looks fierce from far, but when he talked...aiseymann.. okay, no offence people(: i looiike. hahs

hang around, and shoot off to JP. Had my dinner. Off to meet Pika. Off to cousin house. &the meeting with Zyc, cancelled=.="

Ohh! tired! here u go to end.

as usual, my lesbian partner(:
kidding!

&IMY!!

2009-01-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

zul b'day

2009-01-20T13:15:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to ZUL! grown a year older yesterday huh!. January seh, woah. HAHs.

For the first time, Wafi did layan me. Jyeah!! hahs. When first i tried to talked to him, disturb him, my goodness! tak layan ah seh. Then i thought, he's a type that don't really talk to girls? HAHS. mcm paham.

He just ignored when i disturb him. But yesterday, wee hoo~ he talked to me siaaa~ SOOOO CUTEE!! haha. ok whatever ah `aYme.

He's another one adorable kid. (smile) If can be seen, he's the one on the top left hand pic. he stood on the right side, beside Zul. HEHs. Adorable can.. Comel jer orgnyer. haha. 5years old? perhaps, yeh.

OKay! anyway, had quite a tough week. Do stuff here and there. &oh, i thought my brain really need to sharpen, after graduated frm sec sch. mcm raser bodoh gitu. otak buntu beb! waduh~

ohs! interview on Thurs. 50-50 ah seh. i dunnoe if i should go for it. can't really make up my mind for now. wth~ =.=" Oh GOD, please help me, guide me to the righteous path.

OHS! Congratulations to Ronnie's band, Katastrophe for getting in to the finals. All the best yaww~ :D do me proud:) hahs.

u're changing bit by bit. i thought u're not the same as how i used to know u when we first met. u are different. a lil bit different. u're becoming someone else. will it be forever?

band prac

2009-01-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

Had music practice. Woo~ i wasn't late. Kening naik2. Improved sia:) usual stuff. sectional. took 2 juniors from the 3rd clarinet. went well, as it was the first session:)

out for lunch. alumni members was in the office having discussion, my clarinetist went off for lunch, WITHOUT YOU(`aYme)!! THANKS AHH! it's ok. usual stuff. HAHS! went lunch with usual gang. raja,shuk,jared,aiman,min.

kater nk main barang-barang!!!!!!!!!! URHG!!!!! =.="

then saw the same face again. SYAFIQAH. lol. sorry ah, tak perasan ah beb hp bedering. nga sodap mkn kan~ =p

THANKS AHH Shuk. BK ah seh, yumyum.
back to band room. sectional again. set piece.
combined. crazy stuff, being in the percussion section.

off to home with nas. malay hmwk. lepak. games. home.

shooooooooooooorttttttttt
so random, empty post=.="

mkn shiok

2009-01-14T21:45:00.007+08:00

another tiring day. met super-gf after her work at clementi. proceed down to ite clementi to accompany her. &Shab was being super duper uber effing slow otf directing us. =.= HAHS. then i went to RP to appeal some courses which are erm, nvm.

stomach grumbling! went Mkn Shyok with super-gf and her nanny. THANKS AHH, for the free food. dpt gaji katerkan. OH YA! i forget to take down the number. URHG! nvm. then singgah umah nanny jap. shagged. went home later. oh before that, we spent a lil time on "nice-ride". :)

after settle almost everything, exhausted! =.=

but it didnt last any longer, hyper-mood were back yet again.

ewah-ewah dier~

oh, in the house got one lil adorable girl. huhu~

adorable kan! :D

super-gf &her!

watching TEEN TITANS. lame show but coolshit! :D
the similarities between the gfs:)

here is the "nice-ride". haha. bodoh, bangla watching us having fun=.="

penat wooii, see ya! take care.

IMY, be back soon.
ulur tarik ulur tarik ulur tarik ulur tarik ulur tarik, biler mau game is?!?!!

2009-01-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

IT still stays. IT never wanna go.
No matter how hard you try.
Let time decide. Let's be the audience.

Anyway, i'm sure O level 2008 takers face the same situation as mine. Like entertaining those who keep wanting to know how our result is. How good or bad we've done. =.=
Amy! How's result?
Amy! How's result?
Amy! How's result?

Waduh~ Membingetkan benor. Feeling famous jap. HAHS=.= (please eh amy)
So, yeah. I'm satisfied enough with what i have. I know i should have done better. &i knew i've disappoint too many people around me. But why must you think negatively?

Isn't it good enough i still care to continue my studies? Eager enough to go to my new school this april? etc etc C'mon, just your supports will do. THINGS DON'T ALWAYS GO YOUR WAY, isn't it? How many times i've repeated it, countless.

I'm totally fine with my result but why must you be so negative? So regretful? What's the use of it. C'mon, control your mindset man. =,=

Positive!
Positive!
Positive!

HHAAPPPYY!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

band

2009-01-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

It's just so different lately, in every ways.
I don't want to think much of it, but it somehow just linger.
How special can it be.

Anyway, woke up early for Alumni meeting. Wahh seyy, don't know if can commit or not. We'll see.

Watched the band run-through pieces. Then proceeded to Frontier. I was bearing the pain in my head. It was such a real hassle. It's been days. =.= Doing the usual things.

While waiting for the 2nd round, Syahrul, Jared, Wawan, Aiman, Min, Amz & Kaytie:), we played games on the stage while the band members were away having break. It was stupid-yet-fun. FREAKING FUN OI. HAHS. We was laughing our ass out doing all the stupid jokes.

Jared was the nice one so far that i've ever tried, "chibai ah, why so tight?!" can't help it that Min and i burst out laughing. The rest was like talking away then so blur. Then played 007. (laughs)

Then the band going up the stage already preparing for another round. So the peeps and i sat at the backstage continue with another game. I have no idea what is it call but i was hook on it. It was freaking fun that we don't wanna stop actually.

However, due to our crescendo-ing of our voice that Mdm Haznita gave signal that we were loud, we stopped. HAHS. Then sat by the stage and enjoy the pieces they played. But later went to JP to met mom, somesort of lucky draw(??) Then went for dinner with Sis. Too much of details, then met Aiman awhile, and proceed home. Can't bear the pain already and off to sleep.

But then here i am blogging for the sake of Nasuha=___= haha.
Take care people.

those moments

2009-01-09T16:39:00.003+08:00

Waited with full of patience
To see if u would react
The moments that we had
Strike through in my mind
It was rough, yet it crave a smile
It’s direct, yet it was fun
It was you that i had this feeling
Thanks and appreciated

All those times
All those moments
Tears rolling of happiness
Though we didn’t really talk
But the actions took place
Is good enough to tell
With reasons filled in
I’ll never wana let it go
But jealousy of time
We had to

The most happiest girl
That i’ve ever seen
Right deep south into the heart
It sinks and no one knows
Kept it to self

Thinking of everything
That relates you
You might never know
But you might feel

By the playground
With kids playing around
The happiness strike
You’ll never wonder

Sat by the side
Looking at how we bond
Though it was nth much
We took it slow

Till at the end
It strikes
&i never could imagine
I burst out laughing
And i treasure it
Each and every single moments

kids

2009-01-09T13:06:00.007+08:00

those anak sedares i have, are wonderkids. and i regret for not taking that girl's pic. hahs. she's so cute. hahs.

my perspective

2009-01-08T20:36:00.005+08:00

To me, it's not about how powerful the words are, but how powerful ur sensitivity is that it somehow affected yourself just by words and misunderstood the whole thing. That's just how I think it is.

Some people have different mindset, different perspective, different characteristic.
and things don't always go our ways as how we planned. For me, i have to adapt things fast. i don't really oppose people's ideas or the way they thing or they do. Cos i believe, they have their own special ways in doing their things and the way they thinks. We can always say what we think, it's just up to others for them to take it or leave it, or believe it. It's more freedom that way, so as people can come and correct us, rather than misunderstood us.

It's up to them. Yeah. Propaganda. There's positive, and there's negative too. Like i said, it's up to the world. Either they control their heads or their heads control them. Terpulang pader pendirian masing-masing. Or perhaps, be ignorant? :)

How to answer when a person approach you and ask, "What do you think the world have to offer for you?"

Would you answer "oppurtunity?" so that so can have the chances to try out new things. Or so that you will have another chance to prove that you can change to a better person.
Or will it be, "money?" so that you can have whatever you want or need in this world.
Or just other that you have in your mind.

Or even maybe, "Nothing." Perhaps? i dunno, up to the different mindset.

Ohh, i met this girl. She's adorable. Perfectly adorable. Awww..
Another one added to the list. Jyeah.

Yeah, so..results on Monday?
O~o~O

sec sch life

2009-01-06T14:10:00.003+08:00

I'm so sleepy but i can't sleep. `Cos mom will think that i'm lazy cos i keep sleeping during the day. But i need sleep as i didn't sleep the whole night. My mind can't even rest. I was tossing around on my bed looking at lil cousin sleeping peacefully. =.= i've yet to do the chores (!!) okay, just let me post this first then.

Anyway, as i've mentioned, this post gonna be on The memories of my moments in sec sch life. So here it goes. Warning : Quite A HEAVY POST (!)

2004
JYEEAH!! The year that i won't forget. Cos it's the year where i first participated in NDP. Wuhoo~ Of course it was uber fun. Gerek oi~ It's fun because i get to enjoy loads and loads of time. (smile) also, met my new friends. This part is funny-cum-stupid. Before my friend, Ida & i were friends to this girls from Deyi, they actually somehow or another fought. You know, those century where you have this stupid thing, "what stare-stare?!?!" (laughs !!) kedi kan.... We was at our finale position where those Deyi girls were right behind Ida. You know, Ida have this "fierce-cum-arrogant" look. I don't really remember what happened but Ida almost want to hit them when our A.I(assistant Instructor) tried to stop them. I was the oberserver. Side track, i observed a lot during my sec sch life. :)) Ohhs, i so miss my one and only A.I Mr Jeremy Tan. He was the most kindness and caring soul i've ever met so far.

Enough on NDP, 2004 was also the year where i slacked a lot in my studies. Imagine you got teachers who can't just get along with you for all subjects (?!) Yeah ! I suffered a lot. HAHS. But i find it stupid to regret everything now. My math teacher was such a pain! He was a one soft spoken guy but also VERY sarcastic that every student HATES HIM to the core. So whenever it was math lesson, some of friends and i will skip his lesson and just wonder about somewhere else. Furthermore, our class was at the needle work room because of the special case boy who sits on his wheelchair which i thought i should pity him but NO! He's another annoying and such a pain too. He's arrogant and full of craps. He keeps threathening people and send virus. He's really sick!

So, as i was saying, not only Math lesson, but also English. OMG! It was one of a kind. Pupils can easily bully her(teacher). She don't even care AT ALL !! freaking ignorant huh. So we don't even care too. Skipped almost every lessons, came in to class late for some subjects. Smoking. Crapping. Joking. Hanging around with some unknown people at void deck after school. Okay, that was PAST. Later, got lectured by teacher and stuff. As i've mentioned, i was an observer through out, (winks) the only teacher who care for my friends and i was Mdm Jamilah. FOR REAL, people. OHhs, miss her damn much.

2005
It was somehow similar as the previous year. As in slacked in studies. Who would even wanna care when you don't have any attention that you need at your very age. Your mindset was still as low as ever. =p Slacked too much, doing all those ~~bad~~STUPID stuff in the toilet till that we keep visiting our vice-pricipal's office. It was real stupid i admit. (laughs) funny too!! All those countless BETA form to fill in. [That was why i'm so good in filling job application form nowadays (?)] HAHS. crap siols. k back to the topic. Yahh, so it's been the same, till that we can make friends with our own O.M(operating manager) and our Discipline Master. Ohhs! i miss my Discipline Master(Mr Chew). First, he's hot. Next he's super duper understanding, motivational, funny, humble. You name it, all those good stuff. But what can i say, MOE love him more. HAHS. nvm.

2006
WOW. Sec 3 already. Very fast huh. &guess what, i turned over a new leaf. i quited all those bad stuff. Except for coming in late for lessons. It's hard, i mean, being punctual for lessons. Hoho. But i began to LOVE math. You know why, cos i got a great and wonderful math teacher who was really understanding, caring etc. The way she taught us, WOAH!!! superb okayy!! So yah, i told myself to start focusing in my studies, although i thought it was a lil bit late cos i wasn't being pay attention during the basics in my first & second year in sec sch. But i got help from teachers and it somehow help me a lot.

Not only that! I became way more responsible, and erm, a lil bit of discipline. JYEAH! :) cos i was trained as one in my CCA. 2006, it was when i was appointed officially to work with my partner, Sufi and we was the Band Leader. Yes, i was from Band. :DD It was my CCA which actually change me over. I was trained, i was observed, i was motivated, etc. And there, i have to be the role model for the whole lot of my band members. Then it was my turn to observe them, trained them, taught them, disciplined them, motivate them. Everything ! till that i treated BLCB as my 2nd family. It was because of BLCB, i came to school. It was because of BLCB, i started to settle down to concentrate on studies(although it was the MOST HARDEST THING THAT I COULD EVER DO). I learned freaking lots of stuff being in BLCB. and of course, i love my members so much that i wouldn't want them to be out of hand and off haywire. I never show it all out to them though. I approched privately to those who are in need. Those who can't tolerate our training, poor in combining or whatsoever. No one ever know, i bet even my music director wasn't aware of that. Maybe she was aware that i was somehow one helpful girl(at least) :))

2007
GCE N-LEVELs !! HAHA. Yes, i told myself yet again to study more, but i just couldn't. The interest on studies in myself was really in poor conduct. I do still skipped lessons though. NOT ALL of course. i can't even bear to. But at times, when i need some peace, i would just get out of the class and sit by the staircase. at times, camwhore. =p Mom even got me a private tutor. But the result wasn't much of a change. Only my math improve. Though i thought i couldnt make it cos i kept sleeping in math lesson. What do u expect, math lessons are always long hours and even the last subject of the day. By the time, i was exhausted. For 3 periods, i'll sleep the first two period, and woke up during the last period. i DONT do this everytime though (of cos i wouldnt dare to). Only when it comes to a new topic. My teacher will took that first 2 period just for the introduction. Boriiiing. The rest, you wouldn't wanna know. BUT! i was still a good girl. FOOK! i am already one :) self-proclaimed it is :DD Ohhs! there were changes. yes changes in my group of friend. slowly and steadily, we actually was apart from each other. There were too much of misunderstandings happening around.

2008
Ohhs! Finally, my last year in that sch. =.= the year where i still have not change. cos i still slept in class for some dull lessons. I disappoint 2 teachers too :( Mr Adrian Tay with my poor result for chemistry. and Ms Chua Ching for my poor attitude. She was real stunned and i was sorry. :( &I must say there was quite a problem on friendship in this very year. The only one who sticked with me was Chika & Erah. Yes, we clicked very well. i treasured them. What about my other friends? Well, we do hang about, but not as close as we were. Especially my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year". Yes, she was with me since 2004. The very first year of my sec sch life. I love her very much. Yes. But somehow, there was this third party. No, i don't blame anyone, cos i don't even have the right to do so. So, i gave it a thought. I thought i might did something wrong to her that hurts her.

So as usual, i apologise in a joking manner, but i mean it. I dunno if she take it seriously. cos i was being lame at that point of time. i was crapping about. But later part of it, i somehow got to know from this very third party who claimed she was even more closer to my this so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" than me. She was the one who made her stop smoking, she was the one who was always there for her whenever she's in need. She's one the one who pour love and care to her, UNLIKE ME. So, it made it sounds like I'M A VERY POOR GIRLFRIEND. I don't mind that, u know why, cos i dont give any fuck damn shit about whatever has happened. What i meant was, i dont even care about this girl. What i care was, my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year".

I was utterly disappointed when i heard that my this so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" was actually SUSPECTING ME BETRAYING HER (?!) will u ever wanna imagine that? your very own friend okay. HAHS. wow. but still, i kept it cool. cos there's this incident where i was included in their case. So i was called up by my DM. She was investigating or whatever she was doing at that point of time. I was obviously clueless. Why? because i was involved in a sec 4E case (?!) i was like WWWHHATT THE FREAKING HELL WAS THAT ALL ABOUT ????

For real, i know NOTHING. okay, ZERO! about it. i cant even bother to remember what was the case really about but this third party was asking me if i were the one who told our DM that she and my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" was being very close. OH MY GOSH! like as if i would even wanna care?!! about the freaking life?who could even imagine that one small lil thing can be a big deal to a person. DONT YOU FIND IT STUPID?? very. yes. superb.

I dont even wanna care back then, cos that friend of mine, already have her ways. she's happier than before when she was with me. it was somehow a big impact to me. NOT about that third party, but of my this very friend, whom MAYBE really thought that i betrayed her. WOW. Actually, i just couldn't understand the whole story myself. It is somehow complicated. &that was why i cant even bother and just be ignorant. To me, this third party LOVES to make a small thing to a big thing. get it? hahs. oh well, bear with it. humans.. even the past, rake it up all yet again. it somehow looks stupid. freaking stupid.

so i just played my role. and i wasnt affected. i let it pass. i said, it was fated. fated to lose such a friend whom i treasured at the beginning but everything went apart. YES, IT WAS FATED. EVERYTHING.
&there goes my last year in school.
like i've metioned, this wasn't all in my sec sch. this is not even half of those moments that i've went through. some things should be kept low i guess. so thats it, my memories.

okay, back to square one. ohh chores, here i come~

nth much

2009-01-05T12:46:00.004+08:00

Been too lazy too update =.=
anyway, i was having my breakfast this morning while watching Channel NewsAsia. I had 4 pieces of bread with cheese and a cup of hot milo. While eating and watching, then there's this news about a club in Bangkok which was burnt down. Many were dead. I saw the deads lying side by side on the ground and the feeling was like, "Wooo~"

It was the 2nd feeling since the Aceh incident during the tsunami strike. Back to the story, the fire start out when everybody was busy enjoying themselves. Investigation were carried out on how the fire actually starts. The club were charge because they didn't really care much about the safety (?) something like that. Not only that, but also by letting underage peeps into the club. =.=

Many were dead, but there's a few who manage to survive through and were saved. I wonder what that person might be feeling after that incident. One, you stepped into the club. Second, that very bad incident happened. &thirdly, others are dead, but you survived. Felt lucky enough?

Wooow~

Ohhs, result are coming any sooner. Less than 2 weeks. Woah. I can't imangine this. Um, maybe i shall post a heavy one about my sec sch life. Not everything though. Those memories. Yeah. :)

Lastly, ever felt like not talking to everyone? Yes, i feel you. Sorry to those i ignored. Stupid=.= u know, when this things strike. Urgh! You felt like as if everyone is so irritating, annoying, demanding, etc. It's like they can't leave you even for a min when you really need your time alone. How stupid can that be.

Yeah, i'm alright. :))))))))))) see you! :DD

taufik

2009-01-02T22:30:00.004+08:00

i was going haywire for a lil moment
when i saw Taufik Batisah at JP2
JYEAAAH!!! :DD

crap ah amy.
What the hell?? People around can't even recognise him AT ALLLL!!!!!!!!
Why? Cause he wore this geeky spec which was really big. Quite la. Hahaha.
Stupid sia all. I mean some luhh. LOL. sorry.

HE LOOK FREAKING HOT THOUGH.
OH, TAUFIK, when are you gonna marry me? =.=

that's all folks. :)))))))))))

happy new year

2009-01-01T21:45:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :DD

Well, didn't really had much on this day. Just went for fishing with family which gain nothing in return. We went out around 8pm, cousin fetched and we proceeded to Ayer Raja to buy packed food and bring it all to Labrador. We went to the fishing area there and surprisingly, the crowd was fine.

The previous years was quite crowded, maybe because of the area we went to. Upon reaching, we placed our stuff at this fine area, it was spacious:DD I watched the little kids running around while waiting for the clock to strike fast till 11pm cos that's where the water will rise(they said). So slacked around, then later the guys start fishing. Few mins later, he called. And he was at Woodlands=.= (say only no time to enjoy). Anyway, spend the whole half an hour with him on the phone till the fireworks appears!! JYEAHAHAHA. It was AWESOME.

But too bad, there was only a few of those. Thus, we greeted each other HAPPY NEW YEAR. As usual, he'll "nag" some lessons into my brain. The road there was jammed. So we waited till it somehow going fine, which was around 2plus in the morning. So then we shoot off.

Woke up in the next morning(today) and met Nasuha. I wanted to bowl, but she wanted movie. =.="!!!! So i layankan je lah. Her money ma=p LOL. Went to Taman Jurong first to catch my favourite Mee Hong Kong at Fork&Spoon. Then we catched BEDTIME STORIES at P.S
The movie was fine. Was boring at some parts. Aiyaya.

Then proceed to Jp Banquet to have our dinner. Amy diet seh. :DD
And off home-d
&&i so can't wait for result. Suspence^__^

BBQ @East Coast

2008-12-31T14:54:00.002+08:00

Had to wake up freaking early yesterday. =.= So jyeah! It was fun spending time together with my other youths. Met Fahmi, Syafiq, Nurul Fatin & Syahidah in the morning. Took train to Eunos when Fatin Liyana joined us from Tiong Bahru.

Upon reaching, we rent 6 ~~bikes~~bicycles for ourselves each, for 3 hours. My legs are already screaming in pain, 3 hours later. Cycled far, fast and away~~ Furthermore, the pit was seriously freaking far. =.=

Cycled to our junior's pit, then played with water. :)) nah, i don't. ^_^ bla bla bla, went for riding again. Then Nas came and joined. Afidah too :) Others played game when Amali and i start the BBQ. Bum, no more fire starter=.= But well, Amali was smart enough to start a fire with other things. HAHS.

Joke around, bla bla, had catching=.= fun oi. puhlease ey.

Around 8, people started to wash up. And the seniors went off bid goodbye to the others.
Exhausted! Reached home at 10pm, wash up and off to lala land. &i had stupid dreams. Most of my dreams came true. Which means? Not all lorr. ^,^

Happy New Year people! in advance.
Let's go fishing!! :DD

random

2008-12-28T12:13:00.003+08:00

urr!! no pictures. :( daddy, get me a fine cam already, puhhlease.

So! Yesterday was alright. I accompanied parents to go jln2, and you guess where..
Dammit! It's at Pasir Ris. All the way from Jurong=.= It was kind of dull at first, but i endured. HAHS. Bowling idea strikes when i remembered i've a friend, Nurul Islam from Tampines, played bowling there the night before Deepavali, and it's always freaking crowded. :DD

So i gave it a try since we had no more idea of where else to go(cos it's not exciting enough!), bowling was our 2nd last resort. CROWDED SIOLSSS!! But then, it was just ONE PATHETIC game. If it is was going to be 3 or more, i'll bet i win! ;))) Yeah, i had a game with Dad. He's getting better from the first time i watched him play. Darn! I thought he's only good in golf? Jeahaha. I shall PRACTICE more than. =p

Then, we had supper at BBQ Chicken. &home.

Ohh, congratulations to Hardiana's sis who is getting married TODAY! AWESOME :) i love looking at brides. It's not that `aYme's a lesbian but, freaking hell brides are always deadly gorgeous. =) Do i sound wrong. Nahh, Don't think so. Jyeah, and then i'll be off for duty. Awal Muharram :D

long time no post

2008-12-26T14:11:00.004+08:00

Hey. Yes, so, it's been quite a long time since i post. So many things happened. Fun, tiring etc etc. Oh ya, congrats to cousin Erwin(26). Yesterday was his engangement day with sis Salina. It was held at Tampines and Sembawang. The bride was awesome. WOW.

Anyway, yesterday night around 11.15pm when i was on the computer checking my mails, i heard a HARD knock on the door. Stunned. I was like, "who's that gonna be, at night knocking so hard?! when everyone was asleep." Without any hesitation, i walked up to the door and look through the hole, it was a McDelivery guy(??!)

I then opened the door. Oh deng, both were stunned. We were staring into each other's eyes with thousands of question marks in the head. =.="! Few seconds later, "Yeah?" And then he said he was finding for his friend. Lerr. My brother, duh. And so i told him, my bro just went out to i don't know where. He was with his helmet on, his back pack on plus another helmet on his hand, returning it to me, with a message.

I thought i was lucky enough yesterday to get free McD food =,="
it was a lil scary though.

Yeah, as i was saying, been busy doing things each and everyday. &Oh, i went to the Cakap Pasal Remaja(CPR) 2 days ago that was held at Sultan Mosque. It was average. Then straight away proceed to West Coast Park, leaving the other Fityan Seniors behind. Great, i was walking under the rain. Even when i got to WCP, it was so dark, and got myself all wet, due to the rain. DUH~ =.=

I was somehow lost, didnt get to find my family's spot, until i heard a 5 yrs old kid, Nabil's freaking loud voice. HAHS! They were playing in the tent. I was like, "ah! there they are! for sure."

Later, the rain stopped, everyone out of the tent, some went fishing, bbq-ing, joking, all sorts. Later, at 12am, (merry christmas!!) we had a mini celebration for my cousins's birthday. KECOH-RABLE. Then, of course i couldn't miss tuning in to KC kan. MJ12. beh takot sendiri siot. Mepekz ah=.=

Oh, gtg for now.
O's result, 15 JANUARY 2009??!!?! that's so fast.

riding

2008-12-18T12:01:00.002+08:00

Jyeah. Triplets met again!! :D
Mamad, kali ni kiter tk lepak playground okayy. We go riding aje. Haha.

Fetch Pika & Zati at interchange. Then proceed to my house. Played comp, bla bla bla.
Then changed, and go Pika's house. GREEEN la seyy :DD
Cousins ;)
Candid ;)

Watched Senario. Klakar worr! Haha. "Mari kita mulakan aktiviti kita!" kekek ah seh. Hahs. Then otw out of the house, saw Uncle Bob from upstairs. Then got Apiz and Qistina! Weehuu~ Cute perrrr. :DD And off we go riding bicycle!

spore flyer

2008-12-17T19:16:00.013+08:00

N level students might be worrying about their result, PSLE students might be wondering which school they'll get into, but for me, im both worried and wondering how much my bill will be for this month. I know it sounds pathetic-,-" But calls from overseas are fucking expensive isn't it.

Yes! Calls and messages from Kedah! AAMMYY!! U'RE DEAD! Face the fact that you're stubborn and gundu okayy-,-".

anyways, for today. Fun as usual. Spend time with my babes. Had riding. It was tiring though. Hahs! I learned something new. amcm pika, zati? amy da pro pe? LOL. (inside joke) Okay, but not for this post. This post is gonna be about ytd. :DD

Singapore Flyer.

Too many pictures to upload-,-" Later, we proceed Jurong East for Fish Spa! Wuhoo~ Fun. Yes, it was ticklish at first, but few moments, not really ;))

he's out of town

2008-12-14T21:25:00.005+08:00

my oh my.
i felt so different.
i mean, i find myself different lately.

where are my confidence
where are my positive sides
where are my strengths
what happened to me

people are judging me already.
even when they don't even know me well.
well, human beings... mistakes, can't evade..

trust, honesty, loyalty
all are lacking.

mind for the random post.
Anyway, he's still out of town in kedah.
Be back quick can.... -,-"
cos imysm
miss the sarcasm
miss the rudeness
miss the bodoh-ness
everything.

lepak with babes.

2008-12-10T21:05:00.006+08:00

Today, awesome. I mean, as usual. Oh wait, my mind. Urgh! -,-" Anyway! was at Zaty's crib this afternoon. Met my babes, wuhoo~ at the same time pass my donation card to her mom. :) As per normal, headed to park. On the way, got petrol car just passed by us, HENG AH HENG! *phew*
Here, Upin, hahaha. Blurr adeq.

Adeq was trying his best to run away from the camera. -,-"

Gotcha!

"EYY!!! Adeq nak keropoook!" cutestuff. ;))

"Hmph! Dapat pon. Cik Pika duduk one corner tengok adeq makan sudaaa~"

waiting for Zati downstairs. sempat u~ :D

best Pika main swing? lol

Semua nga sasau. ;)

Den proceed to my house. Pika only. And we found something, funny oi. Let it just be our insi de joke =p

Bye-bye!! :DD

random

2008-12-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

Random.

-,-"!!

I don't know if i should upload yesterday's pics as well or not. Hari Raya Haji pics. Errrm, okay, just some. Some reasons for why not all-,-"
Nothing better to do or what? hahs.

Fake -,-"

no comments. hahs

That's about it. Its fun to have them around. It's effing hilarious on that day, and whenever.

2008-12-07T19:38:00.002+08:00

Duty on Aqiqah. Kecoh pe~ I came in the morning and visit the sheeps. Almost ALL were laying around. 1 died-,-" Afiqah was playing with the black cats instead of the sheeps. HAHA. Inside jokes. Anyway, LOADS of shits! -,-"

headache ah seh. Thought can rest. But then.... oh brb.,

sheeps!!!

2008-12-06T14:16:00.008+08:00

Excited! Yes, i was delighted, not really sure of the reason but i am, right after i met sheeps. LOL. Happy beb. Should i? Happy for what eh? Merepek seh `aYme. Kecoh beb. Haha. Anyway, yesterday had meeting. Before that, went to class for teenagers. Yeah, quite a number of new faces for the guys side.

Then proceed for meeting. Annoying Lady(:
"Eh Chika! Kau tk pakai make-up nari?" -Shafiq.

Sungguh tak kuaser. Hahs.

While waiting for the guys to finish solat, so, laze around people;)

Erah was story-telling me about her experience in Padang. It was scary though-,-"

Hehe, Sis Afiqah stress kappaaa. Lek aaah~ LOL.

:DDDD Sis Dila!!!

Boredom.

Hehs, nice bag kak dila;)

Meeting started. Meeting ended. Then it was the mini celebration. Birthday Boy. Happy 19th Birthday Nasrullah! on 4 Dec 2008.

Birthday Girl. Happy 17th Birthday Chika! on 3 Dec 2008.

Sedaaaaap~? ;)

Hell YEAAH~ This was what i've been talking about. Yeah, the sheeps. HOHO. They arrived just yesterday night. And before i headed home from meeting, went down and met them. Bnyk oi. LOL. Step jakun siot `aYme =p

Sedap mkn sorang2 ye? Tanak share ke?

Wow, so thirsty huh after a long ride in the lorry? hurrhurr!

The black sheep:) C'mon sheeps! Don't face me ur back! -,-"

Nervous huh. Chillz k=p

Pastu alek badan bau kambing. LOL
That's about it.

slack

2008-12-04T19:31:00.003+08:00

Today was a one slack day. Slept almost all day long, like a log. Not really, nah-,-" Apologise to Erahbabe, planned to go West Coast Plaza but i was being so lazy-bum and of cos i said no. Waduh! What happened about Vivo's? Busy....

Yesterday's band practice, i find it gerek ah. Clarinetist! Keep it up man! I'm proud of you babes. :D Jyeah.. babes okay, girls power;) enough crapshit Amy. Anyway, i wanted to say a lot just now, but my memory...erm.. you know.. okay forget it.

Sorry to bandmates for i'll not be attending the BBQ tmr, which im sure its gonna be fun. But hell damn thing, you know i cant make it. It's Friday people.. Mosque stuff for me. -,-" alright. My stomach hurts like no one knows, duh-,-" take care people. :DD

Mr. Andy is out of town. Kedah?! FOR ONE WHOLE SOLID MONTH, i think. oOoO

lepakism

2008-12-03T19:53:00.012+08:00

Olaz` Yesterday was as fun as today. Hahs. Mcm biasa jugaaak~ Lepakism with the ladies. So i shoot off to Taman Jurong arnd 2pm. &Oh, Erahbabe has safely arrived to Singapore. :D

Zati's crib. Oh-so-comfortable.
Later, we accompanied Izzati to her former school Lakeside, to take her Certificate. Express kappa. Baik doook~ Hahs!
Then all of us was like so hungry and thus grab some bite.

Kire aper ni? Modelling? Utk Big Gulp? LOL :D

Then proceeded to park. Adeq's shirt, coolstuff. Fierce~ Hahs.

Cutestuff ah dier..

It rains!! HOHO. For awhile ;)

Pika.

Us. :DD

Back to Zati's house.

Home-d.

`aYmeBONC.

that arrogant guy

2008-12-02T11:18:00.004+08:00

I miss eating those with gfs. Yogurt ice-cream or something. Wonder what are they doing. Chika's busy working, Erah's out of town, while myself, packed with other things.

Anyway, this is just one random post. Faiz was being unreasonable, to me. There are still such people ehk. Gosh.

And oh, yesterday's training was as per normal but i can't stand this one guy. He's like one ARROGANT kid manxz! Okay fine, a guy. He's tough, i admit. But muker tak perlu siolz. Takleh angz. Izzati & i was like, fuck this dude to hell man, kerek nak mampos. Mind all those words, we really can't stand him.

But of course, we kept cool. Can't really be bothered. But somehow the way he behave made me felt so disgusted, for real. I wonder how his friends tolerate with him. Okay, like i said, a random post.
Take care people.

nasuha

2008-12-01T13:46:00.004+08:00

The connection is really getting on my nerves.

Anyway, today marks the 1st year of friendship, again, but with Ms Nasuha. Yah, she might be only 14 but somehow, a mature girl in a sense. She's the girl who keep nagging at me and made me realise how the world is like, somehow. Those advises woke me up from the fairyland and thus get back to the righteous path.

She understand me most that i'm fickle, and so i won't be able to be consistant in what i do, SOMETIMES. Yes, for example, being a bad girl, NOT to the extend of that wild minahs, and then turned over a new leaf to be one great decent girl, which lasted only for about 2 to 3 weeks.

And then back to the oldies. But again, this girl came and told me what i've done/said to her for the last few months(when i was an extra nice girl), and that's how she made me realise about everything. Although i kept mum about it, but actually i was thinking about it. I think about every consequences that will occur if i change again. I mean, maner pendirian hidup aku. You see, sorry for non-malays.

I know i was doing the right thing, but why am i just not consistant about it. Maybe i depend too much on other people? Or maybe it's just the way how i react after the people around me treated me? Or was it because i am really, really damn fickle? Only God knows.

No matter how irritating this girl can be(sorry for that), in the end, i manage to think wiser. Like everyone knows, just take the good things and ignore the unessential one. So be it, irritating, demanding, annoying, yes she is. But still, she's the most caring human being that God has created, towards me. I really appreciate that, very much.

She's the one who nags at me when i always suffered during my low-immune system days. Hahs. Oh, currently im having a bad flu. She doesn't know that. I bet she'll text me very soon after knowing about it, telling all those typical stuff about taking ur medcine, have a great rest, get back to her once i'm feeling alright, aanndd, why the hell i have such low-immune system. Fuck that one. Hahs. Yeah, some people will just be suffocated with such things, but some will appreciate it especially those who lack of love and care? Oh crap-,-"

She's the one who will let out every single problem to me and i'll be the shoulder-to-cry-on lady. It's not about i'm being good and just listen to what she've got to say. But it's about waking me up again. Whatever problems she had, i've gone through it. So it made me realise how important my parents are. It made me realise, once again, that i should treasure everything i've got and also appreciating for having such parents. Okay, i love my family and should stop whatever stupid things and got to make them proud.

Finally, I would like to take this oppurtunity, although i know that i've been not showing anything to her but i really really appreciate everything that she has done, just for me. Nag at me like an old grandmom whenever im in the wrong path and get a hold of me to get back to the right track. I can't find anymore words to describe how grateful i am for having a friend like you. I apologise for being ignorant at times as i can't just be bothered. I apologise for being rude at times as i thought that i am that way since i was born, but i know! i've to changed it. Yes, definately. &Oh yes, apologise for everything that i've done, and hurt you so much.

It's good to hear that this friendship will go on and on, God willing. That's about it.

Suzie's wedding

2008-11-30T20:19:00.006+08:00

Congratulations to cousin. Happily married, Suzieana Bte Sutiyono with Muhammad Asdy Bin Rusdi. I simply love the decoration, it was kind of trendy with the colours of pink & black. Held at Chua Chu Kang. Somehow, it was similar with my another cousin's event too, when they got enganged few months back. I mean the colour. Hahs.

It was just a typical wedding event where i'll come, sit, eat, watch, smile. It was rather dull, plus i was having headache. Oh, i can't believe i spent my day with such things. I'm sure there are better things for me to do? And how i could forget about the donation thingy. Shoots, gonna get some ass kicking tmr then. -,-"

Once again, all the best in the marriage life. :DD
"Do not stop seeking what you love, or you'll end up loving what you find."

`aYmeBONC.

random

2008-11-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

Nothing else better to do, so here goes some random leftover pics-,-"
Mel will be the penyibok for the day as usual. =p (last two days)

Semangat! Nak gi dating punyer pasal -,-" !! (no offence bro. =p)

Just now. Went to Singapore Expo and Geylang. I can't take it when it was at S.E. Crowded maut beb. Waduh-,-"

Then went Geylang bought my stuff and makan, sampai boncett! (sungguh tak perlu! ). And saw Yan! He was like so blurr can. Ahahs. Miss those times joking away with them. They rocks ah seh :DD
I wanna go Eunos uuhh~~
Bye-Bye!

Oh, please, i have my own ficklish life okayyys ;/

2008-11-28T13:27:00.006+08:00

Nothing much to update actually. My legs are still in pain. Felt so weak. Tired. Lazy. -,-" From the previous event, Amazing Race. Not yet fine but here comes the seminar thingy. Not really sure what was it about but somehow my History topic was there, The Ottoman Empire.

:DD

Being an usher, was toooot. But yeah, it was fine. `aYme was just being 'anything-goes'... -,-" Enough said. Going Geylang very soon =) Now focus at the baby. not Syafiq. Ah, soo adorable. :D

Suntec, Ballroom One.

Shine shine :D

Then all the Guests went in and the ushers gonna hit their own damn thing cos we got nothing else to do then. Uber bored-,-" But somehow, it kicks me off observing at the women snapping away their gorgeous pictures.

Duh, it was hilarious. Especially with Ustz Asmak's lame jokes. Goodness. There you go, somebody ticks her time playing games, while myself, observing others. Tooot~

Finally, home-d :DD

It was beautiful.

Mind. That was *boredom-strikes*. Bye-bye!!

Amazing race

2008-11-23T21:01:00.008+08:00

Amazing race was fun. Especially with such an understanding YDO. Think whatever u want, talk whatever u want. It's just my point of view. Though its tiring, but it went fine. Of course, there are some misunderstanding, miscommunications etc, oh well, that's parts and parcels of life. Overall, great job people, Fityan Assyakirin.

Though some people just couldn't accept the fact of his thing in life, well, i believe in karma. It's just fated to be. Now u feel it. You regretted, you suffered. Don't act like as if you're way better, for goodness sake, get a life~ We gain, we're happier. Thank God for that.

Pictures, here it goes. Feezah, Jannah, Khairin and myself were stationed at Bencoolen Mosque. It was rather attractive especially the fountain part. We had fun plus of course, running our duty as well. ;D

the entrance

It was VERY VERY beautiful. xD

my station, the task was like a jigsaw puzzle. They will choose a full poster, then find pieces of that particular poster and paste them all back together. The participants was quite fast la sey. Amazingly. :D

Exhausted? ;)

Human time. Jannah & Feezah. u know, we had to entertain ourselves u see. What do u expect.. =p i dunno their motive of hanging on to that thingy. Hahs.

The participants enthusiastically doing their task to get their next clue.

I simply love them. Oh so tired. I wanna sleep. *yawn*
take care people ;D

Retreat!!! :DD

`aYmeBONC.

2008-11-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

It's 1.11am and i can't sleep yet. My peeps are sure chit chatting away right now in the mosque cos they sleep-over while me, just reach hm few hours ago. Gerek-ism. Great show going on man. Hahs. But still need to go out again the next morning. Damn!

Or perhaps they are doing the hamper thingy and goodie bag. Hoho. I missed Pika and we was like what, hugging away just now? Paisey siot. Oh so random. &yeah the juniors were a great bunch of people to hang around with. They are so easy-going and fun to crap with =p

*Should i come for the Qiyam? Hmm-,-"*

Anyway, something struck in my mind when i was day-dreaming this evening.

Sometimes i felt im a one luckiest girl in this world especially in this new era or generation. (prasan jeq!) With such people around me both of good and bad influence. I still manage to go through ups & downs that God has created for me. Plus, let me learn from all the mistakes that i've done. Obviously, we live only for a moment. We live "there" forever. Cherish the people around us. Listen to you heart. No matter what bad things that i've done, i know the limitations and im glad enough that Angels knock the door of my heart and realise to avoid the extend of that bad influence and get back to the right track. There are evils everywhere. We can evade them, if we are strong enough and that can be trained.

Well, somehow, somewhere, that's about it for now. Really need to energize my body, SLEEP. HAHS. Goodnight! :D Bencoolen mosque tmr! :DD

`aYmeBONC.

Prom Nite

2008-11-21T12:11:00.013+08:00

Graduation Night was held on 19November2008 at Marriot Hotel. It went just fine. Good effort on the programme. From games to performance. From food to dancing. Hahs. The food was great. Especially the dessert. ooo~

Went out for breakfast with family. Then proceed to Erah's house. Kana came later. Thanks to Kanages cos she was such a great help on that day. And the rest go bla bla bla, and thus flow~

Whatever it is, shall leave to the pictures. Random pics cos like i've mentioned, i'm so not looking forward for this but hell man, 75bucks i bullshit off everything on the food. Cos right after Erah's performance, we went off and missed the dancefloor part.

Appreciate my bro's effort. Thanks Abg Zul for being there after my prom nite. Not to forget, Shafiq too. Although you guys might be tired, but still...yeah. It was already 1am by then we talked & talked, &i was like half dead. -,-'

Congrats to Sheila ~~Majid~~ for winning the prom Queen for that night. Can't denied, she was gorgeous wearing her red long dress and doing the "emmm, xie xie, xie xie..." thingy. To that 4E-guy as well for the Prom King. I thought it was Ming Ho cos he was real hot that night. But it's fine.

I'm gonna miss Ms Yani, Mdm Yuana & Ms Wee most although most of time i was being rude&sarcastic too them. They are very strong to tolerate all their student's shit no matter what. They have high patience and i look up to them. Thank you to my friends & teachers in BLSS for being there to keep motivating me to survive through in the school whenever i feel like giving up.

I'm not giving any damnshit to whatever result that i'll get, but i know that i've done my best. I appreciate everyone around me.

The one with red color on top, SUPERB!

Pattama. Her dance was the most coolshit. I swear I LOVE TO SEE HER DANCE.

One gorgeous friend of mine. She's UBER talented.

During rehearsal time. Both sang VERY WELL. Mr Tay & Mdm Shafiee

The performers with `aYmeBONC.

She was saying something. Whatever DIVA VA VOOM.

Thank you to :
Nur Rashidah Bte Ismail
Nurul Syahirah Bte Mislan
Nur Ashika Bte Mohd Zaid
Nur Amira Bte Ishak

Great friend so far.

Most appreciate to :
Nurul Syahirah & Nur Ashika

For being there at any point of time from START till the END and without any hesitation for being such a friend.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS. x))

; ` aYmeBONC.

mamad & aj

2008-11-16T18:53:00.004+08:00

Had my normal routine in the morning but the night was awesome. I thought somebody said that he will be coming before 9pm as he will have something on after that. But end up, we met later than then. Mamad !! haha. Okay, public apology going on here for actually make my BFF to double travel just to deliver some food for me. S O R R Y ! :))

Middle of the night, sang numbers of random songs. OoLaLaa~ It was crap yet fun. *grinz* That time were treasured most and there it goes, another sweet memorable night added to our friendship moments. ;) BFF played the guitar and sang, and his BFF sang along too. Thanks to the invisible crowd =p

The cheese roll cake was uber delicious. It melts in the mouth x)) PLus the tasty porridge. Thank you for everything, BFF. =) *aku sayang kamu oh temanku*

Well, for today, catched Madagascar with Aj, Zul&Lala. Rated 6/10. It was just fine. Some adorable & sweet moments going on in the show. Haha. Thanks AJ.

As for Prom Nite event, i'm still not sure if i should go. I don't really see the need. If only i could refund and absent for that day. Just don't feel the enthusiasm in self. While most of the others are busy crapping about it.

JWSS had their's today in Chevrons. =p

I'm in need!! Jobless -,-'

`aYmeBONC.

J&S

2008-11-10T21:29:00.019+08:00

J&S UPDATES!!

alright! bowling competition is over. great day. Game was held on 9th Nov 2008. Overall, it was a wonderful day spent. Had to wake up early in the morning to report at Chevrons at 10am.

Woke up and shoot off to Mkn Shiok for breakfast with parents n 2nd bro. Later another family joined in. Then together proceed to destination. Get everything set up, registered, door gift, lucky draw etc.

Game started. Played 3 games altogether. My group members gerek beb. D'BIBIRZ! okeh, that's the group name.-,- haha. nvm bout that. 1st game was dull. build up during 2nd n 3rd. but still kekok nak mampos cos its been quite sometime since i played bowling-,-

okeh, out of words, pictures are here. Red color was the code for that day;)

my sweeties:)

My team-mates :D They was superb okeh! ;) STRIKE bro!!!

While the adults are having their game, not forgetting the kids which was quite a big group. HAHA. Big family you see, the committee had organised a colouring competition for them. Natasha won first as her coloring was the most vibrant n neat. Well done lil intelligent kid.

This one below, HAHAHAHHA. It was meant for entertainment people. He's old, huhu, okeh i mean young adult. Da NS pun. We were joking that he won first for this colouring contest, who was from a special school. Look at how nerd he is. NO OFFENCE PEOPLE.

Here are the KIDS!!! :D

Forget this group name ah.

The emcees. Phyr & A.B

THE GELEKZ, if im not wrong. All pakciks2 sak!! hoho~

Ahh, THE CANTEKS. (only one guy)

The kid who won. Nur Sarah Natasha.

Champion in ladies individuals. Ruz.

1st runner up.. (with actually pathetic score la)

These are the best players for guys individuals.

He played WOW i tell u. :D

Cant remember again. sorry. the names are just weird seriously.

Ahh,, i remeber this! THE SONTOLOYOZ

They are THE AYAM PENYET MELEYCHET.

Just some crazy moments. DANGDUT!! goyang sampai pagiiii~

After the game and prize presentation and all lucky draw etc, we headed to West Coast Park. Just slacking. And oh, there's some event going on. The junior soccer league or something like that. Haha. I walked a few more steps down to that place, leaving my family for awhile. Then saw one of my athelete friend. Talked2 to their mother jap. bla bla bla. (he's on ly 16-,-)

celebrated Nur Alyah Fitrah's 3rd birthday. :D

She's just soo lovely. Then its time. I headed home for quick shower as we going to Hougang to watch cousin A.B's match. The Melayu Singapura VS Pinang. Draw, 0-0. No further comments on the match-,- After shower, waited for cousin to fetch. Saw Razi, again! haha. Get well soon dear friend. :D

After the match, all of us proceed to West Coast for supper. I was SUPER hungry actually. HAHA. makan makan makan sampai BONCET! den headed home, and BOOM! lala land~

DAAAA~~~~~~~

Bottom line, it was tiring yet fun. One whole solid day!

[[I.LOVE.NURUL!]] :D

`aYmeBONC.

2008-11-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

POP yesterday that was held at CCA Branch was as per normal. As every year, although the previous members will say that their badge was the best or whatever, normal. Yeah, and love that trumpet solo by the BM from erm, yishun town sec if im not wrong. Forget. =p

Everything went fine. The Parade Commander in the 34th NCO Camp was alright. A lil bit cock up i shall say. Anyway, after everything, we went down to Far East Plaza for our supper at LJS. Everyone was exhausted then, and proceed home. A sudden miss of being part of BLCB. ;O

Farhan please grow taller !

Frienship mdnoh&ayme

2008-11-07T08:50:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 1ST YEAR OF FRIENDSHIP!!!

The friendship that were treasured. Going through thick and thins, and more are coming up. Thus we shall stick through strong and sweet. I'm sorry if i were to caused any misunderstandings through our friendship. Thank you so much for being there for me at any point of time and for being such an understanding friend.

The point of time where we met was strictly unpredictable. It's all due to my quite-hyper-mood. We met at a place, where i do my volunteering stuff, and he was one of the stage performer. I was actually quite busy with my work, but somehow, Fate was on our side, and i met this wonderful guy. HAHA. We exchange smiles, talks, and theeeenn, our numbers. x) and never knew that it shall turn out this way. Everything was about sincere & loyalty in us.

Last but not least, i love MdNoh's songs. HUHU^^ I wish you all the best in everything you do and get what you've always wanted. Take care my dear friend. Let it grow even stronger:))

[[NOHbriton&`AYMEbonc]]

he's gone

2008-11-05T17:47:00.002+08:00

OH COME ON `AYME!! ACCEPT THE FACT!!!!!!!!!

that's one.

another fact shall be reveal any sooner.

O's result. Gosh.

Things are changed. Not sure for the better or worse, but obviously for the better. Oh whatever `aYme-,- but ur words are still in my mind. &i've always wish that you'll do it.

&thus i shall keep my promise, if you'll be there, so you'll better be there.

too bad, whatever we planned, doesn't mean it will turn out as it is. Fate does it all.

Ya Allah, help me thru this please.

Passion!

M.R IS FAKE!

2008-10-22T20:19:00.013+08:00

What can i say? More people are turning more evil. You don't even judge those who are "covered" are good people. No offence but yeah, it's the fact. We don't even care if our parent are people with respect, hold a good name and we are like who cares. It's like, I know what i'm doing, you don't have to give a damn. You see.

Majority scenes are like nice, wonderful, sweet, memorable, unpredicatable. Hell yeah, you name it. But what about the ending? Superb awful? You bet. But I didn't say in all, i mean, some situations. For example, making friends or whatever.

You make a new friend, which lasted for about few months. And then you got another new friend. And so, you ignore your "old" friend, and entertain your "new" friend. What A Friend?! That's fine. Depend individually, as usual.

But what if your own friend thought that you betray him/her? Which you don't, for real. Trust. Nobody trust people so easily, okay, again, depends individually. But as for me, i don't. Everyone wants to be careful in everything we do.

Influence. Easily influence? Depends. You bought a story without listening to another side of it. Fairness. You are in great loss then. You didn't use your brain enough. You are just too weak.

You don't even appreciate of having such friend who actually care for you, wants you to be out of the "devily-world", get you back on the right path. Bottom line is, away from bad influence. Helped you to control your haywire-mind when you can't decide on certain things, sharing with you every single experience so as to widen ur squezzy-brain and lend his/her shoulder whenever you're in need.

&oh, even helped you to get some food when you're in such a great pain in the stomach.

What goes around comes around
Some things, you can take it slow, but some, you just have to put some heart in it, oh, and even some brains, puhlease.
Take things easily? Sure, at times. But if you do at the wrong timing, i'm sorry, it's your greatest loss.

open your eyes, YOU ARE SO FAKE.

`aYme.

appreciation

2008-10-20T18:42:00.003+08:00

First of all, Chemistry O-Level Paper earlier was quite easy actually. But i wasn't prepared enough for the paper, so i was least confident for the paper. But thank God, it turn out quite well, the behind part only. First question was so give-away-question that i never thought that it would be out for O-Levels. So i just chincai-hentambuter. =(

Anyway, my babe was so frustrated, boiling siot, blood go upstairs oi~ Lek ah Shab, apa mau binget2 kan. haha. She saw something or should i say someone, that she shouldn't. haha. kecoh la lu minah. :D chill aites. `aYme ader pe. muahaha:D

Lastly, thanks to my cousin!! Supported me all the away, all the encouragement and motivation. Thanks bro. I'll support u too, in you-know-what. HUHU~
`underground cops.